struggling again

[tyme]

Hello my dear @BlueBay ,

So so glad to hear from you.

Thank you for popping in and sharing a little about what's been going for you.

It sounds like a very stressful time. 

Fingers crossed that things will be okay.

We are here for you @BlueBay . Thinking about you all the time. 

Hope little A has been well too.

[oceangirl]

Hi, my sister @BlueBay 

I can relate to how you feel. 

Vit D and COQ10 helps me. 

Here to listen anytime my sister. 

Thinking of you

Hi my sister @Shaz51 

[BlueBay]

Hi friends

Still no news about my dad 

my mum is one evil person 

came off one med this week 

not good having horrible nightmares and quite negative thoughts 

changibg my meds soon which may need hospital admission but I don’t know if I want to go 

taking strong med for a week to help with sleep 

memory is bad can’t think or concentrate 

can’t even read a book because I wander off in my head 

I miss my dad 🥲🥲

having horrible nightmares about my family 

I feel I need to write to my mum and say everything 

anger is destructive in my thoughts 
@oceangirl @tyme @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @MJG017 @Eve7 and others 

I don’t want to go to hospital but not sure my psych will let me stay home 

can’t make decisions 

I feel overwhelmed 

[Eve7]

Thinking of you @BlueBay and sending lots of love and support. Take care my friend. 💙🩵💙

[tyme]

Hey @BlueBay ,

I'm sorry to hear this is ongoing. 

Would it help to write it all out? Write out everything you want to tell your mum (whether she receives it or not)? It might help get it out of your system because it's not fair you continue to sit with this pain.

We are hearing you. We care.

[BlueBay]

Thanks @Eve7 xxxx

@tyme  I will write it all down but I’m scared of breaking down

I might try tomo and show my psych on monday

[Shaz51]

Thinking of you lots my sister @BlueBay 🥰

Sitting with you 💕 ❤️ 

[BlueBay]

😘❤️ @Shaz51  

[tyme]

I think 'breaking down' might be a release @BlueBay . It sounds like you are carrying all these emotions within you, not allowing yourself to let them out in case you 'break down'... so instead, you are getting eaten by them.

You deserve to be freed from this pain. 

I feel you @BlueBay . You'll always have a place in my heart.

We care. I care. This is your forums family and always will be.

[BlueBay]

Thankyou @tyme  i fear so much but at the same time I’m carrying so much anger hurt frustration etc. my body tells me. 
bit by bit I will write it down in parts.

one amazing thing about Sane forum is if you go away for a while you’re really never forgotten. And it’s nice to know you all still are here and care. 
I don’t feel so alone. 

xxxx