Don’t want to accept the pain

[Gremlin24]

@creative_writer mince with salad sounds yummy. 

I'd recommend taking the PRN and hopefully that helps. I know it's so hard to fight the urges but I'm here to chat to if it helps. 

I'm not able to eat at the moment but that's ok. 

[creative_writer]

@Gremlin24 I think things have been building up for some time. Sometimes it’s hard to know what going on. Whether it’s just normal agitation or bipolar agitation. I am naturally an anxious person and I experience a lot of restlessness, probably my ADHD brain doing what it knows best

[Gremlin24]

@creative_writer it's so hard when you can't pinpoint exactly what's going on and why. I'm an anxious person too and get restless and easily agitated. Brains do weird and annoying things to us. 

[creative_writer]

@Gremlin24 I am prone to mixed bipolar episodes. I am kind of suspecting that I am going into one right now or maybe I’m already in one. It can be hard to differentiate from anxiety and ADHD at times. My mind is naturally a chaotic place

[creative_writer]

I feel better today, still sort of restless, mind is racing. I normally find it hard to sit still, but today has been harder. I have been getting intrusive trauma thoughts.
I managed to get the psych appointment in two weeks time. I need to pick up the referral from the GP on Monday

[Gremlin24]

@creative_writer I'm glad you are feeling a bit better at least. Being restless and having racing thoughts is exhausting and the intrusive trauma thoughts on top is horrible. 

So glad that you have got the psych appointment in 2 weeks, I really hope you can get the support you need. 

[Ru-bee]

Good on you for getting that sorted @creative_writer I really hope that they're a good fit for you!

[creative_writer]

@Gremlin24 @Ru-bee I’ve taken another PRN today, I am hoping I get more relief soon. Stress (in this case from trauma) and long day hours does put me at higher risk of experiencing mixed bipolar.

I was worried she wouldn’t accept me. The receptionist spoke to the psych and got back to me letting me know the psych is happy to take me on. It’s a bit expensive (I feel like most psych now have gap fees) but I rather see someone who would have the expertise to help. Mental health is just so expensive, and 10 sessions are limited. I’m going to try to make do with the 10 sessions

[Gremlin24]

@creative_writer i hope you get relief from the PRN soon. 

I'm so glad she has accepted you and I really hope it's a good fit and you get that support you need. Everything is expensive these days and it's hard to get help because of it. See how you go after the 10 sessions and go from there. 

[creative_writer]

@Gremlin24 my brain is starting to slow down. Just hoping it remains that way. I have a bit of a migraine now which isn’t surprising as high energy emotions burn me out.

I am hoping she is a good fit. She certainly seems experienced in areas I need help with. It’s going to be a bit of a travel, but that’s pretty normal when you live on the outskirts of Melbourne