Hi Blue
I hear you about your job. Honest, I was a stay at home mum, before that I had a few casual jobs like picking apples, working in a commercial laundry, wiring up the new post office - but that was when there were lots of jobs for everyone. I'm officially a dinosaur. Being out of the workforce while my kids grew, then the birth of the internet and computers...I felt well and truely left behind. I've only had 2 jobs where I felt I was part of a team and supported. I retired a few years ago, it was just too much trauma and I never told anybody or asked for help. It's one of my major flaws.I loved my work though.
I made a few vision boards, do you about them? you get an old peice of cardboard and a few old magazines and just cut out pictures of things that you resonate with, or that appeal to you, and glue them on the cardboard, then put your vision board in the corner of you bedroom, somewhere you'll see it out of the corner of your eye, and in maybe 6 months those things sort of fall into your life. That's been my experience anyway. I've only done it twice and watched a friend do it too with interesting results.
Sorry to rave on. We just had an afternoon of 3 storms, thunder, lightening, a bit of hail. It's nice to hear the creek babbling again.
Hang in there. People care about you. We are all mirrors for each other so there must be something pleasing in you that makes other want the best for you. Me too.
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