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[Sophia1]

Hello @Krishna 

I lost you for quite a while there..

Have had post concussion flare ups mixed in with all that comes with missing adult children..

you know the drift..

I have been trying to write to you all day..

now am worn out from phone calls..

will get back to you when I can..

Not sure where you are at..

Last I read somewhere your daughter was visiting and then your husband was unwell..

Then I lost that thread..

Wherever you are

A tag would be warmly welcomed when and if you are up to it..

Sophia1

blast from the past

[Krishna]

Hi @Sophia1 So nice to see you online again. Has been a while since I’ve been on the forums, trying to sort my headspace with the help of a psychologist. My daughter cancelled our reunion so now heading into the 4th year of not seeing her. Weekly phone calls though needing money but nothing more. Back into her old detrimental habits and I’ve just called it quits. Paid off a huge debt for her and no more money being sent. Slowly realised she was prioritising substances over food and I simply cannot and will not enable this any longer. It’s so hard knowing she’s doing it tough but her choices are contributing to this. She receives enough each week to get by. Otherwise my husband and I are both well despite the worry and concern. Not getting any younger and desperate for some peace of mind. My girl has just been approved for a social housing townhouse but won’t share the address at this point but knowing she will have stable affordable  accommodation is a huge relief. Her team are still supporting her 6 hours per week with errands etc. so they kept me informed every now and then of her well being. My garden needs attention although I did grow some beautiful tomatoes etc. this Summer and veggie patch now being prepared for Winter crops. Looking forward to the cool reprieve. I made the effort of driving to the ocean twice a week during Summer to swim and float and ease my mind and will continue to do so until the water becomes too cold. I hope you’re managing okay despite your worries, looking after yourself best you can. 🙏❤️

[Sophia1]

Thank you @Krishna 

In overwhelm mode at moment...

I know that I can tell you that and not feel judged..

will write more when I can..

In the meantime...

Two mums....day by day....questions...no tangible answers...

There is a special flower that has popped up from my bromeliad in my garden house...first time one in there...not even sure if in season..

I will think of you every time that I manage to get there.

Sophia1

Thank you for being here for me even though absence plays a part in our connection as well as that with our adult children...it does not change the meaning of the connection that we have had..

[Krishna]

Thank you @Sophia1 your words mean so much. Little tears being shed knowing somebody understands. Truly grateful my friend. 🙏❤️🌹

[Sophia1]

I understand that feeling you described in your last post to me.

@Krishna 

I am in a dark place at the moment.

All the anguish as hopes for some semblance of a life dashed again.

I know that you can relate.

I do not want to pass this on to you though.

a garden where we might meet

Sophia 1

coastline to walk across the clifftops find a path to lead us to some shallow water, wade, swim and relax in peace.

[Krishna]

Sitting by your side @Sophia1 in this beautiful garden and floating weightless as feathers together in the ocean. 🙏❤️