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19-06-2018 11:05 PM
19-06-2018 11:05 PM
Honesty- highs, lows, drink, drugs and pharmaceuticals
Hi,
So, the last time I went onto this forum was about 2 weeks ago. i wrote a poem, which I regretted the moment I awoke the next morning.
For those of you who don't know me, I have apparently been diagnosed with Bi-polar and anxiety. I totally agree with depression and anxiety, but am unsure about the bi-polar part.
So, when I wrote the poem I was nearing the end of a short spat of happiness and joy. Yes I had more energy, enthusiasm, comedien etc within me, but was i 'up'? I don't think so....
Anyway.
Get it out 'whim' I'm saying to myself, fingers spread like half spiders on the keyboard.
I know I am abusing alcohol. I can do several days in a row without a drop, but find it hard to stop. I don't drink when I'm depressed as I know it is a depressant etc, but when okay(ish) or 'happy' I do. I then can't wind down so take a prescription pill of at least three varieties (I have pain too) to help me relax enough to hopefully sleep.
I am addicted to pot, with tobacco, and know I so desperately need to quit.
I just wanted to be honest in the only place I feel I actually can be.
Thanks for reading.
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20-06-2018 12:06 AM
20-06-2018 12:06 AM
Re: Honesty- highs, lows, drink, drugs and pharmaceuticals
Hi @Whim
I really like that poem - and now you have been so honest - I can see the background -
Thanks for trusting us with the truth - you can - we are gentle people here
You know you need to get off the stuff you are taking - I can honestly say I have no idea what that is like but there are people here who do - and I think you know that being honest with yourself is the first step to getting clean
All the best Whim - I wish you the best and hey - I know when I read something that was worth writing - I think you have a great talent
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20-06-2018 04:58 AM
20-06-2018 04:58 AM
Re: Honesty- highs, lows, drink, drugs and pharmaceuticals
@Whim Hi Whim I like the title of your post 'Honesty ...' it is a tough one for us all. After reading your post I thought long and hard as to whether I am honest and I just don't know. I could use this post as a confessional I suppose although the mods wouldn't like it.
Here is something I am being honest about the board is full of friendly formites who appreciate everyone's poetry. Your poem was great and I look forward to reading another one when you are ready 🙂 greenpea
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20-06-2018 07:04 AM
20-06-2018 07:04 AM
Re: Honesty- highs, lows, drink, drugs and pharmaceuticals
Hi @Whim That was a hard post for you to write, what a huge step. We will treat your honesty with respect and care. You know inside yourself what needs doing. Take care. Travelling along with you.
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22-06-2018 01:39 PM
22-06-2018 01:39 PM
Re: Honesty- highs, lows, drink, drugs and pharmaceuticals
@Whim. Well done on sharing. Not always easy to do.
I abused alcohol for a long time. I still find it hard on days I'm happy, not to celebrate with a drink. But I drank everyday. NO. Doesn't help the Depression.
NO judgement here. Glad you felt comfortable sharing.
Wishing you all the best.