Hi @Rainbowzebra

So sorry to hear about your dear horse. Animals are such wonderful companions. If it helps any, time is a healer. I lost my beautiful dog when he was 14 and it was the greatest loss I had experienced and can only say that time is a healer.
Sometimes friends who haven’t walked the miles in our shoes and cannot fully grasp our experience of loss. And often their reactions say more about them than us. They can be snowed under with things too. If we give others the power over our lives, like taking our ability to trust, we disempower ourselves. Trust is tricky because you do have to gauge the character of another person reasonably well, which fortunately can be a learned skill but is not always accurate. But trust is pretty beneficial to most relationships ships. So at times when my feelings are hurt - I try to balance it on the probability that I may have hurt people unintentionally and that it’s part of living. Like cosmic karma. I think we all get that from time to time.
But if someone repeatedly hurts me so it affects my wellbeing, well, sometimes it’s best to explore making new more promising connections. Life can work in mysterious ways and bring you the things you need when it’s time. I like to ask myself: what is my next best step?

After enduring more than my fair share of suffering, I think there is tremendous merit in continuing, evolving, growing through life’s twists and turns. Some can be truly wonderful after all : )

I wish for you some wins and positive experiences and that beautiful people enter your world and gently cushion your soul and bring you warmth and love. Keep hope by your side and practice things that bring a smile to your face daily. There are good people in this world and beautiful surprises around the corner : )