@Jynx I drove my mum crazy when I was a little one. I wanted to play instead of sleeping. I also woke up early. After all I was the toddler who ran away when her parents were praying along with people’s shinny things like glasses. My parents found me with security.

I wish I could lie down and close my eyes but I often feel the need to move. I move a lot during my sleep. If I was ever to get a partner in the future, they’ll have to get used to it. I steal blankets when I’m asleep too and take a lot of space.

I am feeling pretty restless right now too. I get thoughts on replay. Maybe this light headedness isn’t helping. I’m used to living life on hyperviligance, it is suffocating. I’m tempted to buy things to escape from these feelings. Will I regret it, maybe. Probably don’t need more makeup right now, but Cyber Monday