@creative_writer Do me a favour hun and take some nice deep breaths, and give yourself a pat on the back. I think it took a lot for you to say that, right? Just want to acknowledge that! If I could wrap you up in a big cuddle right now I would 💜

I wonder if that's another factor that has made you feel so isolated? Because of your connection to culture and to religion, there's a facet of your experience that many people just won't understand if they don't know your culture - particularly if the help you are seeking is also coming from people with a Eurocentric view. That's not to say you shouldn't be seeking out their support! Just that it might also be something to look for as another avenue for support - seeking solidarity in the spiritual!

I know me simply saying 'no no you're not sinful for that it wasn't your fault' is probably not all that helpful right now - instead, I wonder if it might be something for you to contemplate. Let's just say for the sake of the hypothetical that you did something that was definitely a sin. How would you go about seeking forgiveness? How would you mend that bond with yourself, and with your relationship to God?

Those questions can be rhetorical if you like, I know that one's spiritual identity can be a very private thing, and you don't owe me or anyone else insight!