Dearest @ENKELI 

Look, the most important thing is this ......very sad story ......

Is you. 

When and if they come back, you must be strong and beautiful as you are 

When both my sons turned 15, and my youngest son, 16  my mother stole them from me, she made arrangements for my oldest son to live with my oldest brother and my youngest son to live with her. They are now 30 and 35 but until now, I was grieving for them. 

I couldn't stop this. I could have called the police but what would have it done to my teenage sons ? 

The only thing I could do ---- after some time was realise I had to get strong. It was very very hard. 

I'm asking you to be gentle with you. Do free Udemy online courses I'm only just starting to do myself. 

No one knows what will happen next but I'm thinking you have nothing to lose.

I'm asking you to 

Write about grieving. We would respond !! 

Get into morning practices of making cups of tea and use your imagination to 

Dream of your life. 

You are powerful

You are special

You are not alone x

@Oaktree @WizardMotor @Blackcloud @Glisten @TAB @Ontilt1971 @Tilz Advice about a sibling @Adge 

This morning my mum rang that she needed help getting to the doctors. I ate some @TAB chocolate and took her then we had lunch. 

After all these years of trauma therapy and therapy,  I am not crying in bed and having tantrums after seeing her. It's working !! When she started telling me stuff I looked at her and thought, you poor deluded soul. Everything your saying is lies. And I don't care anymore.