Hi @Spana29 

Welcome to the forums!! Believe this about yourself first - you are showing great strength and courage just coming onto forums such as this one and reaching out for help. A lot of people wouldn't even do that.

I agree with @Mudrunner - if he is tarting to say suicidal things and you are worried, you should seek help from those numbers you were provided with. 

Now let's talk about the flip side....yourself. You said that you are at your wits end. No wonder!! It must be very hard for hard you. I can only imagine how frustrating it must be that on the surface you guys seem to have a great life, but underneath, he is really stuggling. I can hear that you love him, and want your lives over here to be good ones. 

You need some support for yourself in order to deal with this - there are many carer support services available that can offer you not only much needed support, but also some practical advice on how to deal with things. Can you tell me what state you live in and we can see if we can connect you up with some local services. In the meantime, have a look a Carers Australia website here - this will give you a good idea of the type of help there is available.

You will find some wonderful people on these forums, who can also offer you some really good support and advice also. @Alessandra1992 @PeppiPatty @Rick @kristin are just a few.

Keep posting  @Spana29 -  we are here to help!!

Hobbit.