Lived Experience Forum

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey @Bow 

That is so good you get to see a pdoc like that. How did you get that? I'm trying through the community, but they only do once-off assessments. 

[Kyle1]

@Birdofparadise8  Yeah. It can be awfully challenging sometimes. Often seems relentless, doesn't it...

🫂💙

[Birdofparadise8]

I swear since March last year I've just kept getting worse I don't know how it will ever stop @Kyle1 I just feel so alone right now and all I want is someone here with me. 

Did you see what I wrote about KHL? I can't believe how much I've relied on her. 

[Kyle1]

Yes...

I experience similar connections. I think some people would call it anxious attachment. Or maybe co dependency.

I don't know how I really feel about those labels... Seems completely logical that we, as humans, are wired for connection. And a lack of such would be cause for distress to one degree or another...

@Birdofparadise8 

[Birdofparadise8]

BPD @Kyle1 

I was told I could have quite BPD but didn't meet the whole criteria. 

[Bow]

@Birdofparadise8  I use to get referred to them every time I was discharged from hospital for a follow up appointment. I would beg for them to see me on a regular basis but they would always so no. After many one off appointments and a serious attempt at ending my life they decided to take me on. They don’t take just anyone unfortunately. 

[Kyle1]

Bi polar? ... 

I don't know much about that. But if you don't have the criteria how could you be bi polar? @Birdofparadise8 

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh, okay @Bow, I'm sorry you've been through that. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Borderline personality disorder BDP and bipolar as well, apparently. Who knows what I really have @Kyle1 

[Birdofparadise8]

They are all just speculation. The only diagnosis I have is depression, but I really don't even know what I have anymore @Kyle1.