My Mosaic

[Snowie]

Hi @Bow 

Sorry about the crummy day.

Do you think a trip to the gp is needed?

I saw your psych suggested EMDR for you. 

Maybe it's something you can explore if YOU want to. It is your decision hon.

[Bow]

I probably need to go see my gp @Snowie  i haven’t seen her since before we left for our holiday. I’m have a few things I need to discuss with her but I’m putting it all off. Not things that I really want to face. I had bloods done yesterday and they must of been ok cause she hasn’t called. 

How do you find EMDR? My psych did explain it to me. And she did say that she will get me some handouts to read over. I think I want to also see if I can watch a video? Is that weird? But I wanna know more, want to fully understand what happens. Cause to be honest it freaks me out. Scared of not having control. 

[Snowie]

Even if you see your gp @Bow, you only have to say what you want.

I'm really mixed about EMDR. I'm not sure if it helped, but it hasn't made things worse. We did do it for awhile but stopped about Oct last year. My psych has talked about starting it up again.

The times it didn't work for me was when I went into the session already very distressed.

I do think researching it a lot and going in knowing what to expect is really important.

I also think that having the power to say yes I want to do it this session or no I don't think I can handle it this session is extremely important. It gives you the control too.

[Bow]

You know my psych said to me yesterday what can I say or do when I’ve had enough or when I need a break? I told her I didn’t know. She wondered if I would be able to simple say I need to stop or have a break? I really don’t know though @Snowie do you find it easy to say stop during sessions? I think I tend to just dissociate or shut down. 

I don’t know whether I’d feel like I have the power to say not today. Maybe I’d need to make a card that says it. Instead of perhaps just not turning up. 

[Snowie]

I have three cards @Bow 

Stop, go and pause

If I need to stop or pause the emdr and can't say it out loud I just use the card.

I use these cards in discussing lots of different things, just not emdr.

I find it hard to use my voice at times. I will just shrink back within myself and close down.

My psych tends to know if I'm going ok or not just from my body language too.

[tyme]

The book project you made was awesome @Bow !

@Snowie , hope you are feeling a little better today.

Hugs to you both.

[Snowie]

@tyme today has sucked. Needs to be over.

[Bow]

Sorry @Snowie  was having some kitty time. 

i think I need to make a set of them cards just for therapy. I have other cards I made and use…. But not stop go pause ones. I think k they could be very helpful. 

bed time soon? I’m sorry today has been so awful 

[Snowie]

Kitty time sounds lovely @Bow 

Just being around animals, especially babies, helps.

I find the cards helpful. Maybe it's something you could talk to your psych about or just make them and tell her you want to use them. Sometimes it is the best way I can communicate.

Think bed will be soon. Had enough drama for one day. Plus gotta take mum to the gp in the morning.

[Bow]

They are so fun to watch @Snowie  the way they run around and jump, all their funny moves. And then the snuggles. 

I think if I remember, I will make some cards before my next appointment. 

do you have any other plans for the weekend?