My Mosaic

[Bow]

It’s more than frustration @tyme it’s day in and day out. It absolutely sucks the life out of me. I don’t wanna go into details all that I am currently struggling to deal with every day. It’s so bloody painful and I can’t anymore. 

[tyme]

What's the change that needs to happen so things might begin to change? @Bow It sounds like you feel you have been on the same merry go round for years and years, and you feel exhausted?

I hear you, and I hear how tiring it is. 

If you want, feel free to share what life currently looks like for you, and also share what you ideally want your life to be.

However, if you think this is too much, no stress. Just know I'm sitting here with you.

[Bow]

Waking up filled with overwhelming dread knowing that flashbacks are gonna hit me at any moment and knock the breath out of me. I can’t control them I can’t make them stop. Dissociating. You know what it’s like coming out of that state and seeing things you did and having no recollection of it? Try to sh to make it all stop sometimes it helps others it does nothing. You look at what is around you and you are immediately filled with so much shame and sadness cause ya want out you’ve had enough pain is too much then ya got all the ED stuff that’s literally constant consuming the hatred the physical stuff want it all to stop want out of it and your filled with that shame and sadness again nothing makes it stop nothing makes it go away

anythinh would be better than all of that but you know that’s all just a dream 

[Bow]

And don’t think for a minute that sleep will be a good escape from what each day brings cause that’s far from the truth. If if you get off to sleep easy there will be nightmares that brutally wake you and then there are the times that take you ages to get off to sleep

There is no escape

[tyme]

Sounds so hard @Bow . As I said, I can see how exhausted you would be feeling and I know you've worked so hard with trying to better yourself. Yet in all this, I see how strong you are. I hope you find a way to continue using that strength within you to get the love and care you rightly deserve.

How were things when you were overseas? Were you able to implement strategies overseas that you can try here? I'm mindful you had limited supports while being overseas?

Hugs to you @Bow 

[tyme]

Sounds so hard @Bow . As I said, I can see how exhausted you would be feeling and I know you've worked so hard with trying to better yourself. Yet in all this, I see how strong you are. I hope you find a way to continue using that strength within you to get the love and care you rightly deserve.

How were things when you were overseas? Were you able to implement strategies overseas that you can try here? I'm mindful you had limited supports while being overseas?

Hugs to you @Bow 

[tyme]

Sounds so hard @Bow . As I said, I can see how exhausted you would be feeling and I know you've worked so hard with trying to better yourself. Yet in all this, I see how strong you are. I hope you find a way to continue using that strength within you to get the love and care you rightly deserve.

How were things when you were overseas? Were you able to implement strategies overseas that you can try here? I'm mindful you had limited supports while being overseas?

Hugs to you @Bow 

[tyme]

Sounds so hard @Bow . As I said, I can see how exhausted you would be feeling and I know you've worked so hard with trying to better yourself. Yet in all this, I see how strong you are. I hope you find a way to continue using that strength within you to get the love and care you rightly deserve.

How were things when you were overseas? Were you able to implement strategies overseas that you can try here? I'm mindful you had limited supports while being overseas?

Hugs to you @Bow 

[tyme]

Sounds so hard @Bow . As I said, I can see how exhausted you would be feeling and I know you've worked so hard with trying to better yourself. Yet in all this, I see how strong you are. I hope you find a way to continue using that strength within you to get the love and care you rightly deserve.

How were things when you were overseas? Were you able to implement strategies overseas that you can try here? I'm mindful you had limited supports while being overseas?

Hugs to you @Bow 

[tyme]

Sounds so hard @Bow . As I said, I can see how exhausted you would be feeling and I know you've worked so hard with trying to better yourself. Yet in all this, I see how strong you are. I hope you find a way to continue using that strength within you to get the love and care you rightly deserve.

How were things when you were overseas? Were you able to implement strategies overseas that you can try here? I'm mindful you had limited supports while being overseas?

Hugs to you @Bow