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Re: My Mosaic

Ah, I understand @Bow these kinds of anniversaries are horrible to get through

But the day is passing, it's nearly the evening, you're making it through and soon this day will be over

Bow
Senior Contributor

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Yeah nearly over @Ru-bee  but things don’t seem to settle for some time unfortunately 

Bow
Senior Contributor

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Really crappy shitty day @Jynx  really did not want to get out of bed at all but people animals needed me. SW came this morning she was late and then couldn’t stay long but maybe that was a good thing. she asked if I was going to my psych appointment and I said no just needed to be home in bed where I feel safe. cause it was getting close to my appointment time she asked if it was ok if she called comm mh and let them know I wasn’t coming I said yep that’s fine.. better her do it than me that way I didn’t have to talk to anyone when they asked why I wasn’t coming my SW said I was not feeling up to and they asked physically or mentally my SW said both. She ran over my supports over the next few days as she is now not here until next Wednesday. She was going to email my CM too to let her know. She left and I crawled back into bed.

my psych then called. I really didn’t wanna talk but she wanted to know why I wasn’t coming in again. Said that days like this are probably when I need to come in. And yeah I know that. But feeling safe is what I need more. My CM ain’t in til next Wednesday either so they wanna send the team out over the weekend to check in on me 😩 I rarely cancel I’m just doing what I need to do today 

pretty much just been curled up in bed all day

wishing the day to disappear

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fark and now my eyes are leaking 

Jynx
Peer Support Worker

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@Bow Mm I'm really feeling that tension between the adherence to expectations and the desire to trust instincts. Sounds like a very stressful day indeed. So does that mean CMH is coming even though you don't want em to? Do you have anything on over the weekend? 

 

I wish I could hide in bed today tbh. It's not hot, I had a sleep in for the first time in many moons, and sometimes it's just what is needed hey!! Ach, maybe tomorrow 😋

 

(Also just so you know I edited your post - feel free to email if you have any concerns)

Bow
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Yeah they coming even though I don’t really want them to @Jynx  if I shut them out too much then they speak to mum. And I don’t like that. But then I have to explain why they are coming to visit anyways 😩

 

don’t really have plans at the moment for the weekend. Would just appreciate it that they let me know when they are coming

 

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It was the truth just stating what I wish what I wanted
Jynx
Peer Support Worker

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Reckon it's better to speak to your mum beforehand or just let them take care of it @Bow?

 

Yeah hard to make plans when you got a mystery visit to work around! Maybe just fill it up with artsy things that aren't time sensitive? 

 

Totally legit, I definitely don't want you not expressing how you're feeling!! However we also gotta be mindful of how others might feel reading it. If you're unsure about the why, you're more than welcome to email us about it and I'll hash it out with you 💜

Bow
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Some kitty spam @Jynx ?

 

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Bow
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I don’t know if anyone’s around tonight?

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Hey @Bow . I'm around 🙂

Bow
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Hi @tyme 

 

@how ru?