I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I think it’s coming to the time that I leave. 

Also.. thanks for editing not deleting. I do appreciate it. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 , what's happening?

[Captain24]

I can’t @tyme. I’m just to stupid.

[tyme]

Can't? Too stupid? Who said that?? @Captain24 

Hugs to you Captain. I'm here if you need a chat. Sorry I got caught up the last 2 days.

[Captain24]

I’m just not good enough to be on here @tyme. I hurt so much. (I hope that’s not too vague or to specific) I’m just not getting it. The last email makes me realise that. 

It doesn’t matter I don’t feel like I’m worth it. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 , I've just read your last email. Is it okay I leave it for Jynx to respond to? I'm not really getting the gist of what you have been discussing. Sorry. That's not on you - that's on me.

At the same time, I'm here if you want just a general chat. And no, I never said you weren't worth it even if you feel that way.

Feelings are not fact.

Are you thinking you need to be 'perfect' to be on the forums? If so, I'm booted out then.

Come on @Captain24 , there's so much more we can run with.

[Captain24]

It’s fine @tyme. Jynx won’t remember anyway. 

That’s how I feel. If I’m not perfect then it’s not good enough. I’ll just mess up as I don’t get what is ok and what is not. Because I’m too stupid to get it I will get kicked off. 

It’s messing me up big time. 

[tyme]

Is this something that can be solved tonight @Captain24 ? If not, is it better to park it so that you get some reprieve? 

Otherwise, get yourself to notice the feelings that come up for you.

The comments you've made about yourself are quite harsh. No one is perfect. If you seek to attain perfection, then you've set yourself up to fail... 

Are you working Sunday night?

[Captain24]

I don’t know if I will ever be able to solve it @tyme.

Theres lots of feelings that come up. None of them good. 

Is it harsh or is it true? 

I get home at about 7:45 Sunday night. 

[tyme]

And look, maybe not being able to 'solve' it is okay @Captain24 ?

I think the 'art' is to learn to be okay with sitting with uncomfortable feelings. It's totally not me and totally not you. Yet I wonder if this is the secret?

If I don't get to chat to you again tonight, I'll hopefully be able to connect with you on Sunday night. Only if you're not too buggered after work.