Don’t want to accept the pain

[Gremlin24]

@creative_writer glad its slowing down a bit, migraines are horrible and I hope you can get some rest. 

Fingers crossed for you, the travel will be worth it if she can give you the right support. 

[creative_writer]

@Gremlin24 my migraine is better today and has been overall better. Seem to be having partial body flashbacks, but it’s an improvement from before. I think I often disconnect from my body, I’m actually starting to wonder whether the body flashbacks occur more often, and that I just have learnt to disconnect and ignore. I didn’t realise I had discomfort in my body till now.

I am having a lot of anxiety about the new psych, but that’s probably normal

[Gremlin24]

@creative_writer glad the migraine is better today.

The partial body flashbacks are exhausting and overwhelming. It's definitely possible that you disconnect from them and are learning how to ignore them. 

Completely normal to have anxiety about the new psych. But you already know that this is a psych that you wanted to see, and that she has the knowledge needed to help you. 

[creative_writer]

@Gremlin24 I’ve become so disconnected from my body, things like body scans trigger me, because it forces me to acknowledge what I’m feeling in the body. My brain prefer to not think about what I felt, but it’s very hard to ignore. I wish I could, but it keeps surfacing.

I lucky she agreed to see me. It’s still a very anxiety provoking experience to be vulnerable.

[Jynx]

Oh you found a psych @creative_writer? So glad to hear it!! Yep nerves very normal hey. When is your first session? 

Also, hi! lol

Hiya @Gremlin24 😊👋 

[Gremlin24]

@creative_writer i don't think it's ever possible to ignore it completely but learning how to manage it is. 

Totally understand the anxiety over having to be vulnerable. Sending you lots of strength and calming vibes ❤️

[Gremlin24]

Hello @Jynx 😊

[Jynx]

Wise words @Gremlin24 😉

How you travelling today? 

[Gremlin24]

@Jynx honestly not great. I'm full of thoughts, feelings ands emotions. Feeling everything all at once and it's so incredibly overwhelming. I've been doing my Diamond art to keep myself busy which is somewhat working but I'm almost finished and then it's like what then! 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx it’s in a week and a half. It is very nerve wrecking for sure. A new person always is. Though I can start off slow.


@Gremlin24 I feel like I do a lot of disconnecting from my body to cope. Probably explains why I get periods of disassociation. I hope you feel better soon, I didn’t know you were in diamond art. I haven’t tried it myself, but art can be so soothing 💖