I'm actually working Christmas day at this stage. I may as well say it......... I work as a mental health nurse (Div2) and have done since I got this crazy notion that I needed to change jobs in a massive way. It was a totally, off the cuff impulsive decision to toss in my old factory job and try nursing. Maybe I was searching for something to help me understand why I always felt so terrible, however I really fell on my feet with this one and because of the nature of the job (always learning, always striving to be a better nurse) and partly because of the comradery of my colleagues, I've managed to stay in the job 12 years. That's an amazing record for me!!
But lately I feel it all slipping away. I'm scared I'm about to do another chameleon act and dump nursing to try and find that part of me I've never been able to. I'm suffering massive issues with my sense of self lately and that's making me want to pull the pin and go try something else. Part of me knows full well I'll never do better than this, yet the impulsive thing is driving me to self sabottage my career.
Anyway, I digress. Since I'm working Christmas day and then probably up to my sister's place for Christmas tea, I may not get on this forum until quite late, but I will try and drop in to be with you all. I've got hundreds of posts to read through, but you're all feeling like kin already.
