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[Glisten]

@PeppyPatti Europe of course. A month long holiday? Europe all the way. ✈️

[PeppyPatti]

@Glisten  I'm thinking that. Bit scary - I was in Israel many years ago which was an eye opener - 

Two or three countries ...

[Blackcloud]

hi @PeppyPatti @Jynx @Gremlin24 @rav3n I'm gonna be seeing a speech therapist tonight via Telehealth and I'm nervous cause it's been like less than a year since I last had a speech therapy appointment and I'm gonna be seeing a new speech therapist since the one I had last year unfortunately left 😞

and speech therapy sessions are literally my least favourite therapy type sessions I've had and have so far

also I dont know if I plan on going to volunteering tomorrow and it's already been 5 weeks since I haven't been volunteering there

[Gremlin24]

Hello @Blackcloud I hope all goes well with the speech therapist tonight. Can understand why you would be nervous, try to take some deep breaths before the appointment and just take it one step at a time. 

It would be great if you could get back to the volunteering but take it at your own pace, if you aren't ready to go back that's completely ok. 

You know we are always here for you. Sending you lots of love and strength ❤️.

[Blackcloud]

@Gremlin24 

Appreciate your advice, I will try and take some deep breaths before the session ❤️ 

I feel that life would be better for me if I were to be in an environment where I would feel comfortable to attend volunteering/work for every shift than the opposite. 

🫂🫂🫂

[Gremlin24]

@Blackcloud being comfortable would definitely be better. Is it possible to try and volunteer somewhere else where you will feel comfortable? 

[PeppyPatti]

@Blackcloud  what did you see at the movies ? We saw ' Conclave ' 

Which is a bit like a thriller but only men are in the film. There are nuns but not really. 

@Jynx @Oaktree @Gremlin24 @Blackcloud @Glisten @TAB @Bill16 @Clawde @Meowmy Re: Good Morning @Emilia8.   @ENKELI 

@tyme @                         

So, after a week of oversharing and heightened emotional pain 

Im good. Im still walking around 

Thinking up speeches  to Mums friends and thinking of ways how to get rich immediately. 

How can I hurt and sayi something to her useless and wealthy friends i see on the streets ?

I could say to one wealthy retired policeman this - 

" I thought by now from your many years of tough policework that you could pick up the nuances between my mother and myself but clearly i was wrong. 

I cant do this because its not within my nature. 

That Will pass. 

[Blackcloud]

@Gremlin24 

For me, being comfortable at anywhere no matter what it is would ideally be being at a place where every single person in that place is always nice and welcoming to me and would never make me feel annoyed/upset or uncomfortable with them at anytime. I know this kind of mindset is not that much of a great one since it is not realistic and unfortunately it doesn't exist at anywhere ever, but really if only everyone I've met meets those ideal expectations that I have then that would be the only time where I'd be comfortable and 100% willing enough to wanting to come to work/school/volunteer without ever feeling unhappy or feeling "un-present" on a single shift, nor having these kinds of thoughts I have that are ruminating in my head on the daily. 

[Gremlin24]

@Blackcloud yes unfortunately everywhere we go there will always be unkind people. People tell me that I should do volunteer work and immediately I go into defence mode and list all the reasons why I can't, dealing with other people is one of the biggest reasons I can't. 

I'm sorry it's so hard for you and that being around others is such an uncomfortable feeling. I do hope you are able to find a way through it so you can get back to volunteering cos it sounds like something to do enjoy when you are able to manage it. 

[Blackcloud]

@Gremlin24 exactly!! Like so far I’ve volunteered at 2 places (one of them was at Vinnies which I no longer volunteer anymore mainly because 1. it’s retail where you’d of course have to have customers talking to you and stuff but the staff on the other hand are nice - except for this young girl that’s a few years younger than me that I hate actually, but thankfully she already left volunteering way before I did. And 2. Because it’s far away from I live and there’s no way I’m gonna have to keep on using public transport and whatnot to go there) and there’s always at least more than one person (that’s another student or coworker or volunteer) that irks me 🤣 

yet I have to keep lying to my mum that I’m going volunteering (when I’m actually not) whenever she asks me via sms just so that she can stop telling me that I need to go

volunteer. 
I was looking up at some volunteering roles that involve animals in it, but most of them are filled with roles that I definitely will never see myself in doing and most of the locations are very far from where I live 😛

i feel like even with enough professional support I’m getting from counselling/therapy I still won’t be able to manage it even in years time. I know cause I’ve had it happen before. 😕