Me too @TheRenegade345 .
No one knows how long they will live for. But how you live it? That's a different story.
To me, I feel the black dog is just so big. And each one of these thoughts is feeding the black dog so that it overtakes all else. I know you feel having a relationship is 'the answer'... but my fear is, what happens if the relationship comes and the realisation hits that it's not the answer to what you are feeling?
Who knows?
I wish I could say much much more, but I don't want you to feel upset, invalidated or hurt even more. I'm sorry.
As I say, I hope change comes to you soon.
