@TheRenegade345 you are not a loser for not being able to cope with the incredible amount of stress you're under. The current social world and all the institutions we must navigate in it, were all made by and for neurotypicals. There's no shame in not having the energy to navigate a system that is inherently inaccessible for folks whose brains work a lil differently.
Alas @tyme is only half-right - certain GPs can refresh a script for a scheduled medication but they can't do the initial prescription or change the dosage or anything. So like, definitely good to find a GP who can do that, because it's a LOT cheapter. But for the initial prescription, hmm.... what about telehealth? Have you looked for someone online? I'm not sure how exactly you'd find it other than a google search but you could try one of these databases:
Find a Psychologist
Find a counsellor
I'm sorry that it is so hard right now. Please try to remember that none of this is indication of any kind of personal failing. You're rolling a very big boulder up a hill and everyone around you has a boulder pusher, but can't see that you don't have one. They might ask you why it's taking so long but won't ever see, or sometimes even be able to conceptualise, how much harder it is to push without a boulder pusher (a.k.a. executive function lol).
Oh! And as for the social stuff - you ever heard the term 'body doubling'? It floats around in ND communities; basically it's about sharing space without necessarily having to be sharing an activity or sharing words. For example, I love it when one of my ND friends comes around and like, they will just sit there and game, and I'll like read my book or whatever, and every now and then we might share a funny thought or something but mostly we're just chillin. I mention it because sometimes when I have no energy to be social but still want some connection, it can fill that gap without being too draining. Does help to have some ND friends though, do you have any other NDs hanging about in your life at the moment?
