Never being in a relationship

[TheRenegade345]

Is it worth it? Is life worth it?

[Jynx]

Hmm @TheRenegade345 that's a big question, and one that has me a bit concerned about you. Are you worried about your safety at all?

My answer to you is this - yes, life is worth it; worth all the pain, the struggles, the heartache, because what's the alternative? Depends on your beliefs I suppose but it will mean the end of all potential for change, growth, and exciting new experiences. And you might not believe that those things are even possible, and that's okay! Neither did I once, heck I am surprised I made it to 30. But humans aren't static, we change - it's the only constant in our lives. You have the potential for change too, I know you do 💜

[TheRenegade345]

@Jynx 

I'm not worried about my safety anymore. I dont care about my safety at all. Honestly I dont care about a lot of things anymore. My heart has been ripped up and tossed aside too many times for me to repair it anymore. I have tried, seriously tried, but I am emotionally and mentally dead. Life sucks and it's only going to get worse for us all.

[TheRenegade345]

I cant actually feel my heart anymore. I have no feelings and no personality. [Removed by moderator]

[Jynx]

I can hear how overwhelming it is for you @TheRenegade345 - I'm wondering what kind of support you feel would be helpful in this moment? 

I am logging off now, but there's always people around to connect to.

Please be gentle with yourself 💜

[TheRenegade345]

@Jynx 

I dont know what support I need specifically. If I knew I would ask for it.

But I just want to feel, I want to feel emotions and actually have a sense of what its like to be human:

- I want to know what its like to be touched.

- I want to know what its like to have sex

- I want to know what its like to be intimate with someone

- I want to know what its like to be held.

I am 30 freaking years old and I dont know what any of these feelings are like. Please just end me now

[TheRenegade345]

@Jynx @tyme @rav3n @Ru-bee @RiverSeal 

Like I have connected beyondblue too and there just isn't anything out there is there? Nothing. No resources whatsoever, single people are destined to be lambs to the slaughter and have no meaning or purpose.

I am terrified and scared that I will never be in a relationship. I feel like there are no services or supports out there for single people who dont know what to do or what they are doing wrong. I really need help because I am trying to connect with women and I find that I get absolutely nowhere despite that I know others who have no difficulties in this area. I really need help or guidance or something as I am struggling immensely.

What does it feel like to be intimate with someone or have sex? I wouldn't know at all. I hate this world and this planet. I have no idea how to deal with this stuff. I have spoken about this stuff for years and all I get is vapid cliches and platitudes, no meaningful strategies or resources. Its absolutely heartbreaking