Never being in a relationship

[tyme]

Do you use a dating app or something? @TheRenegade345 

What to the people say? (Don't need to go into detail). But it is looks, it is vibes, it is the content of what you are sharing?

[tyme]

I recognise that your idea of 'success' is very different to mine @TheRenegade345 . So hence I'm going with your definition in this case.

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme 

Yes, I have no option but to use one because I am not meeting others in any other way (I dont want to hear someone say, "well you need to meet someone another way", because it is the most meaningless phrase ever concocted by humanity. HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW?).

I have said this before, I dont get any feedback at all so I dont know  and if I did know maybe I could do something about it.

I think I must be the most ugliest piece of vermin that has ever been sighted. Mirrors crack and break at the sight of me. I have an incredibly boring and disgusting personality in which others must become repulsed by the very sight of me. 

I must be horrendous to look at and I deeply apologise. I hate myself so much ijdcnoijdnijdnciedonednxcdefhnxchdenehdjnxdejn xdhjen jdefhen djhc fnjhcf

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme 

I wish voluntary euthanasia was legal, its the only way to save me from this hell that I call my life.

[tyme]

To be honest, is the underlying issue relationships or depression @TheRenegade345 ?

From your posts, I'm not sure it is relationships.

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme I think its probably both. Bear in mind, this stuff is hard to process particularly when you put in the amount of effort that I have put in. It absolutely sucks that I havent got anything out of this at all.

[tyme]

Hey @TheRenegade345 , How are you going today?

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme 

Miserable, just surviving. I am one day closer to death

[tyme]

We're in a similar boat @TheRenegade345 . I'm one day closer to death too!

Comeon @TheRenegade345 , allow yourself to be loved and cared for mate. But you gotta love yourself first. 

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme I am trying, it is hard when you have put in all this effort.