Angry

[Jamc]

This morning i was feeling very angry phoned my friend up she said go to the gym which i did after a 75min workout i feel great but got home now i want to sleep something i do not do much but as is only 215pm here if go to sleep now will be awake at night not good. 

[Sakurapuss]

I am angry today so I apologise if it seems I'm taking it out on anyone. I've been told by my workplace that due to my mental illness I'm not working at capacity compared to a 'normal' person and can't be trusted to work on my own. Now my problem is I hate my job but my good friend and colleague had her son pass away unexpectedly just before Christmas so she's all over the place also. But everyone is like 'oh poor her' and there's so much support for her (which she should rightly get). But on the other hand I suffer from what her son went through and it's like 'you have no resilience, you're just weak, get over yourself'. I feel I only come to work to support my friend and pick up the pieces but I'm fighting a losing battle. Oh I forgot to mention I work 4 days a week, and 3 of them are by myself. Go figure.

[CherryBomb]

Hi @Jamc,

Did you manage to stay awake or did you nap?

@Sakurapuss it seems like your workplace is not very supportive of you. It's unfortunate that some workplaces do not understand nor sympathise with people who have a MI. I wonder if it is possible to get some support from elsewhere? Do you have people in your life that you can turn for support? If not, the forums are a great place. Quite often, there will be people, or groups of people that don't offer the support we need. Perhaps they don't understand, or there's other stuff going on for them. But this doesn't mean that you are not worthy of empathy and compassion. It is possible to turn to other that may be in a better place to give what we need.

[Sakurapuss]

@CherryBomb when I first applied for my job they said that they embraced diversity, actively encouraged disabled people (depression is a disability apparently) and were a tolerant and professional government department to work for. Had I know then what I know now...I wouldn't have applied. I know my husband and kids understand 'mum has mental health issues' but that's as far as it goes. I have a lovely psychologist and am going to a new psychiatrist for a meds review next month. Last year was just awful but 2016 is looking up