hey peace you have done really well keeping it together while you had people fitting the gutters, just an intrusion can become quite confronting, i always seem to project my moods into the next day and it just builds a crescendo of feeling low, i am trying to not let the days control the next,
Lately i find myself feeling good....... for what seems like a day or two but then i start feeling guilty, and then i don't know i get very mixed emotionally..... i can't seem to balance out what is what
Today i did my usual sunday arvo thing, cruise around in my car music blaring i think i over did it tho, because now i am finding myself a little manic, i have so many ideas that i think i will write down in my journal for processing, my mind races when i get like this, hence why and i have to apologise to everyone on the forum, why i am a little bit post happy this afternoon.......
might have to change my mood using, some different songs or some moving you tube clips.....
those clips allow me to access the tears built up inside me..... for some reason i cannot cry about my own situation but when i watch the good deeds clips, i cry my eyes out...... i know it is not exactly normal but for some reason it feels right....... i don't understand my own emotions and i have hi-jacked this post and gone off on a weird tangent......
OK today i achieved getting confused by my own emotions....
got out of the house which always feels good
i sat back at the top of the hills and watched a good couple of hours pass by, watching the world so to speak
i haven't achieved it yet but i am going to message a friend later and see if they want to catch up for dinner some time during thee week
sorry again for hijacking and weird tangent
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