RGB's thread

[RGB]

I'm starting a thread for myself.

[RGB]

I'm feeling very empty right now. 

I'm spending a lot of time thinking about the past. 

I'm 43. I've wasted so much time.

I'm feeling very lonely and I feel like I deserve it. Would the world be a better place if I wasn't in it? 

[Wenna]

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[RGB]

I'm feeling lonely tonight.

I've been making progress. Now, when I'm in public I don't feel like I don't belong. This feeling isn't as bad as it used to be, anyway. 

I'm not happy, but I at least feel like I deserve it.

Baby steps.

[tyme]

Hey @RGB ,

Good to see you. It’s true, baby steps.

[TAB]

I can appreciate how you feel @RGB  re 43 , gosh I used to think whats the point pre 40 sometimes. yes, wasted years on years. 

yet somehow am 60 and still here . Still challenges. ok day to day and existential. live in moderate comfort. feeling pretty weird lately as moved to small country town , got to snap out of that ha ha lol 

I was tagging you in music thread and this came up, so thought I would come for a look

@tonys @Meowmy @MDT @Bunniekins @StanD @Kyle1 😊

[RGB]

There was a bit of a mishap with my medication and I've been taking a smaller dose than usual for a couple of weeks. 

I've been feeling negative effects and the last couple of nights I've yelled at people who didn't deserve it.

I'm going to have to sort the situation out next week. Shit. Dealing with medication fun and games is one of my least favourite things to do.

@TAB @tyme @Wenna @EternalFlower 

[TAB]

ooh ouch @RGB  funny how only part of brain works sometimes is the Guilt part .. that sucks . Take it easy hey 

https://youtu.be/7PXOHpBneEU

[EternalFlower]

Hi @RGB @TAB @tyme love to see ur threads! Are u ok? Lowering meds can be intense.

Not nice feeling. I dont think u are a failure. I think we have voices of others who hurt us telling us that, but I dont think its true. 

Hope ur enjoying this weekend ♥️

[RGB]

That's very sweet. Thanks 🙂 .