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[Oaktree]

Hi Tyme,

Just checking in with you. How are you? I have missed chatting. I have been pretty busy working on assessments and what not. Probably have another early night tonight. I have a birthday gathering to go to tomorrow night and then my son and his fiancee are coming over on Sunday night. Have you got any plans for the weekend?

edit: I just realised that I forgot to tag you @tyme 

[Oaktree]

@tyme 

I hope your shingles resolves soon. You are a trooper to be unwell and still be working. Please take care of yourself.

[tyme]

Nah, it's all good. I love this place. It's my chill place. @Oaktree 

Hope you are okay.

[Oaktree]

@tyme 

Yeah I am good thanks. Just getting assessments submitted and stuff. Starting work on a videotaped roleplay. 

[tyme]

That's the part of these certs that I very much dislike. I HATE the roleplay video stuff. I told my organisations that I refuse to let them keep the recordings because I don't feel comfortable having it on an online cloud. @Oaktree 

That's one part of these course that really stress me out.

[tyme]

Hey @Oaktree ,

Thanks for asking. I'm still not very well with the shingles, and I don't think the hot weather is helping. Other than that, things are pretty good.

[Oaktree]

@tyme @rav3n @Ru-bee 

Hi is anyone there?

So a bit of background, many years ago my older brother came to visit from over east. My boys were maybe less than 12. My oldest is 30 now. Anyway at that time my brother tried to apologise to me for things he did to me as a kid. I wasn’t ready to hear it then so I fobbed him off. Then in 2021 I sent him a Message to ask specifically what he was apologising for. Anyway I haven’t heard from him since 2018. Anyway over the last couple of months the trauma linked to my brother came up with my psychologist. She wanted to do a therapy but I was too scared and because of Tafe we agreed that now wasn’t the right time. I broke up with my psychologist last week. Then all of a sudden this morning out of nowhere my brother sends me a bunch of voice messages. Again he is apologising to me. When I asked him did he remember particular events he said no but that he was so sorry. Now I feel like I need to see my psychologist again because this has all been very unsettling. I don’t know why the universe wants me to deal with this now? I am feeling wobbly.

[rav3n]

hey @Oaktree i'm here.

i can see how the timing of him reaching out has made it more overwhelming. i'm so sorry this happened to you.

can i ask - was the reason for leaving your psych related to not being ready to dive into the trauma linked with your brother? or was it another reason?

is reconnecting with your psych a possibility, or is there anyone else you feel comfy opening up with about this? 

when things like this suddenly happen, it's hard not to feel panicked and all over the place - are the any strategies that can help you feel grounded and less wobbly? 

sitting with you.  

[Oaktree]

Hi @rav3n 

Yes cancelling my sessions had to do with not being a good time to deal with the trauma caused by this brother. I sent my psychologist an email this morning but she doesn’t work on Mondays. I made an appointment for next week. I just got off a webchat with Beyond Blue. Not sure how helpful that was but the lady gave me some services that were related to the specific form of abuse. I am trying to have a nap but that is not happening. I don’t know how I feel.

[rav3n]

@Oaktree the fact that you've already reached out to your psych and beyond blue is amazing - hopefully your psych can get back to you tomorrow.

i know it can feel really unsettling having all those mixed emotions and thoughts, but just know that it's okay to feel confused. something unexpected and confusing happened, and your emotions reflect that - it might take your body a bit of time to process this and feel calmer, but you will get there. 

what usually helps ground your thoughts? are you a journaling person?

there's no 'right' or 'wrong' feeling. whatever you feel is valid, please don't feel any sort of guilt over that.