Meds can be hard to take...

[Jamie]

Perhaps I Should Abstain: Like I said I’m half dead,
 it’s defs the meds I dread. 
It doesn’t help to drink, just makes whinge. 
Like my life’s come off the hinges 
and that my existence needs persistence; 
I sometimes wonder if I’ll make the distance.
 I know what you’re thinking “be more resistant”
 But I’m telling you so; I don’t even feel low. 
Sometimes I just don’t know if I can follow my vision of me fulfilling my mission… 
And my life is easy so I shouldn’t complain, 
cause I wouldn’t know real pain if it was hooked to my veins.
 All I know about is being insane so I need refrain from making rhymes of my disdain; of the bane that makes me feel so damned drained.

[kato]

@Jamie 

Hi Jamie, welcome to the forums, My name is Kato, your post it reads so beautifully, very poetic,

It actually reads like song lyrics, i don't know why, but when i read it, in my head i am singing it, Can you tell me a bit more about yourself? if you like, you don't have to of course,

are you finding it difficult keeping up with taking your meds? or am i mis-interpreting a little.

Hope to hear some more from you

regards Kato

[Jamie]

Hey Kato!
Thank you for the compliment. This one's an older one. At the time the I was really struggling with the side effects of my medication (the eating, the lethargy...)
More about me? Okay, I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and have had two episodes.
It has fuelled my interest in psychology and now I'm an undergrad student. That's a little about me, how about yourself?
I like that you read them as lyrics! Ha ha, I have been trying to write lyrics as a time waster these days and this one is one of my first attempts 🙂

[kato]

hey jamie,

yeah it was odd i had to re-read it a few times, and each time it was sounding more like song lyrics,

I have been diagnosed with bipolar, possible mood disorder, generalised anxiety and depression, i am currently working through from an episode i had late last year, that has made me lose alot, but i am getting better, slowly but surely, I must admit i have been reasonably lucky with my meds, i went maybe 2 months of being bombed out, now they don't give me too many side effects..... my mood cycles pretty quickly, between up and down, and i am waiting on confirmation from my new psychiatrist on exactly what my diagnosis is, which should be this week.

I like the forums because they are a safe space, and i have met a heap of really interesting and nice people, oh and i get carried away and type too much....

keep up the writing, it's really good, i just saw your other post, it's also really good

i think maybe in the future i might lean toward working or voluntering in the mental health sector, but not too sure at this stage

[Jamie]

That's rough you've got the works. But through the haze comes perspective...
Or so is how it worked for me, and I hope for you too.
Thank you for the kind words 🙂