Destiny

[rav3n]

they are big question, let's table them for another time @Rockdog ?

working on the self-love and self-growth part is more important anyways, and looks like you're on the right path, and you've found your passion in helping others - its a great step to your journey

[Rockdog]

Thanks @rav3n ,

I do feel that is where I need to be. Hopefully talk soon. How are you going with everything? It sounds like you have had some similar issues as me. 

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme,

That is a good idea and it might remind me. I still don’t know how to though and I’m really treating myself badly at the moment. I will put my dreams aside for a little bit to do some work on me. It is weird but I have seen a couple of glimpses of a future me that I never would have a year ago. If it is possible can you just reassure me what you think about her feelings because they are getting a bit mixed up for me again. 

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme ,

hope your weekend is going well. I was just wondering if you are on line tonight? 

[RiverSeal]

Hey @Rockdog, I'm on tonight if you want to chat? I think I missed you last time, so I'll get a keen eye out if you do! RiverSeal 

[Rockdog]

Hi Riverseal,

Thank you, I am ok 

[rav3n]

hey @Rockdog just saw your message - i'm going alright at the moment. the guy i like knows i like him but he sees me as a friend. it did hurt to hear but i don't regret being open about my feelings because not knowing how he felt used to consume me, and i'd always be analysing every message from him to see if it was a sign he liked me or not. some days like today, i feel like i'm over him and i'm moving forward. other days, that little crush feeling comes back and i just try to refocus on myself, my work, my hobbies, etc and remind myself that i'm going to find someone new who loves me the way i want to be loved soon. 

how are you going ? 😊

[Rockdog]

Hi @rav3n ,

thank you for sharing, yes I know exactly what you mean. I did that as well with the signs. I didn’t get to find out because it ended so harshly when I thought everything was great. You are right though knowing is better. At least you are friends so something might happen later down the track. I have lost contact maybe forever. I try to move on but I am pretty tired, I am tearing up writing this. Everything was going well, like I said before she was in a professional position so it was weird, and at the start I thought I best be careful because I knew I had feelings and I might get in trouble. After 2 years I never did, in fact she went along with me.So I thought I was safe.  She knew my feelings, and even visited my work one day. Yeah she could have been shopping but said to me ‘ I wondered if you were working’ so had obviously thought that before coming in.  Anyway at the end she just says she can’t have me developing abnormal attachments really coldly. Then next time i could see she was stressed. I said ‘ I would always protect you’ which was the wrong thing to say. She freaked out and said ‘I don’t understand did you think something was going to happen? Then she coldly said I think you better see someone else. Anyway on the bright side a few months ago I walked right in front her car now that wasn’t coincidence. We both sort of freaked out then I smiled and did a little wave and she did the same back. That is why I still think things might work out because that was too random and she was nice to me. Anyway sorry, I just wanted to tell you all my story. I am trying not to recount it with everyone.  Tyme knows the whole story, but I feel like I can tell you. 

[rav3n]

Thanks for sharing that with me @Rockdog I really appreciate it. I really do relate to that ache of waiting for them, i know that pain of waiting and i think i just got sick of it which is why i forced myself to tell him how i feel i think.

That must've been quite confusing having to see her switch from being warm towards you to suddenly being cold once you showed her you cared. It's nice that she waved back to you in that recent interaction. 

I'm a big believer of "if he wanted to, he would" in terms of making a move - with the guy i have a crush on, i know nothing beyond friendship will ever happen because he's had heaps of opportunities to make a move yet hasn't and he's also told me he wants to be just friends. so instead i've made the decision to not wait for him and focus on myself, my friends and meeting new people whether that's new friends or new romantic interests. 

do you have a good group of friends? and are you keeping your options open in terms of allowing yourself to meet /.connect with other new people?

[Rockdog]

Hi @rav3n,

thanks for understanding. I could tell you would know what it feels like. My situation was a bit different because something changed and I think she might have gotten in trouble as well because she wasn’t meant to act the way she did. That is why it was special to me.  I still think that sometimes things take time. He might feel like friends now but over time develop different feelings. I wouldn’t give up hope, but you are doing the right thing by focussing on yourself and meeting new people. I have a very limited friend group but no I’m not closing myself off to meeting new people. I mostly want to work on myself as well because if I don’t nothing will work out anyway with my life. I want to get that sorted first.