Crashing

[Gremlin24]

And just like that it all comes crashing down. It's all back to where it started, the thoughts, the urges, the plans. Why does the good never last long, why do I only ever get a very short break from these tortuous feelings and emotions. 

I just can't take it anymore. 

I give up. 

You win. 

I'm done.

[Marzey]

I'm SO sorry you are going though all of this @Gremlin24 . You've been trying so hard for so long.

The only advice I have is give yourself a break from it for ten, fifteen minutes. Grab a nice cold refreshing drink and something small to eat if your hungry.

Come back in and start all over again.

Just know that I may be new here, but you have many friends on this forum who are there for you.

If it helps, try and vent out what your problems are. It's a good way to get them outta your head.

Again I'm sorry you're going though this, you don't deserve to be. I have 100% faith in you though that eventually, you will succeed!

-Marzey. Here for you anytime.

[Gremlin24]

@Marzey thankyou for your kind words and support. Things really do just get so hard for me sometimes just like they are right now. I try to take things minute by minute but even that's just too much at times. 

I had a cold drink but i haven't been able to eat today.

It's just constant thoughts at the moment but it's going a bit further than that now which is really scary for me. 

[Marzey]

@Gremlin24  are you safe at the moment?

What could be done to help you feel as safe as possible? Venting it out, talking with someone you trust, leaving things for a bit and find something distracting to do?

Here for you anytime Gremlin24, -Marzey.

[Gremlin24]

@Marzey I'm ok for the moment and I'm reaching out to a crisis service. I know my thought pattern all too well.

I don't have anyone to talk to other than chatting here and to crisis services. I'm colouring a picture and listening to music but not even that's enough to keep the thoughts away. It doesn't help that I just messed up my picture so that's only added to everything right now. 

Thankyou