Hi Darcy, FAith-and-hope, Shaz51,
Thanks for your messages.
As with so many if us I don't 'self care' enough. I think loneliness is killing me, and so much past trauma catching up with me. Don't talk much about that. Carers push it down.
My sis isn't well, was hospitalised recently with acute thunderstorm asthma, the worst I've seen her, but she's back home now on a bucket of medication. Bit worried about what this is doing to her heart, she suffered previous heart damage using a cocktail of prescription drugs. Gets arrhythmias... doesn't help that so many psychotropic have horrendous comorbidity (namely obesity). Sometimes it angers me how the system does this to people then criticise them for it. Sis got upset the other day when Dr referred to her as aa
'morbidly obese'
anxious woman
poor asthma managementmanagement
Yep, pretty aweful put downs.
Who wants it announced that they are 'morbid' let alone 'obese'. And why do they feel the need to proclaim these words, why can't they just say "BMI 50%" - that would be more scientific, more accurate, less stigmatising, less ridiculing etc. Besides, my sis has beenbcalled obese 30kg ago, how general is that definition! Fat people do not need to be shamed, they already feel bad, carry their own weight every day and all to often hide away to avoid disgusting attitudes and people.
You might have guessed, I struggle with this myself.
I've engaged a psychologist to help with some panic attacks lately, she thinks I have anxiety depression (who doesn't on some level I wonder). She pointed out the same trauma that crippled my sister emotionally (my words) also impacted me. We lost a beautiful little sister and our parents were old school physical discipline - traumatised themselves. Ha! Are their any untraumatised families our there? I wonder if 'trauma' is the norm, on different levels, and psychologists are glorified sarogate parents for grownup. Oh, maybe that's a bit simplistic, but so is putting individuals in little MI boxes. I'm starting not believe in psychology / psychiatry as useful tools for individual growth. Community is the answer.
Just popping in to say hi.
Syltt
