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31-03-2023 11:50 PM
31-03-2023 11:50 PM
Toxic cheating
Hello,
I am new here but felt I needed an outlet to post. I have been in a relationship for 14 years but for 6 of those I have been cheating on my partner. I have no explanations as to why and always thought I was just toxic and a liar. But this year it came to light that I have borderline personality disorder. Only recently has my partner found out about all my lies and cheating and I feel horrible that I did that. But I also feel like I had no control over myself. I don’t condone what I did and I despise my actions. I just don’t know how to explain to her what I did was all about my own feelings and not her.
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01-04-2023 03:16 PM
01-04-2023 03:16 PM
Re: Toxic cheating
Is your partner sticking by you? If they are, you are lucky. For their sake and your own, please get help. Get into a psychologist, get the support and learn the tools to stop what you are doing and to better understand yourself.
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01-04-2023 03:44 PM
01-04-2023 03:44 PM
Re: Toxic cheating
No she has left me. I have been admitted to a day program for bpd
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05-04-2023 09:39 AM
05-04-2023 09:39 AM
Re: Toxic cheating
Hi @Camf1
It's a good thing you're getting help for your BPD. Is there any chance your partner will forgive you and give your relationship another chance?
I thought these might be helpful for you to have a read of.
Feel free to visit Raising Awareness of BPD - Flipping the Script
or
Warmest wishes
Hanami