Big day today, got dates for criminal trial against my ex. I'm so terrified I can't think straight. Saw my psychologist and had a big session with her and have so much racing around my head. I'm stuck arguing with myself about the same stuff that it all comes back to being my fault or not. And the people who first taught me that everything was my fault.... My parents. It's so hard to trust and repeated experiences of safety are not something that ice experienced before in my life. I expect people to change and hurt me. I finally trusted a man to love me and married him and he soon changed and it's been devastating. How do you eve learn to trust?
