Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey @creative_writer @Kyle1 @tyme @Jynx @outlander @Bow @fluffylight @Shaz51 

How is everyone tonight? I hope you all had a good day. 

I went to a tulip festival, which was lovely. 

My Mum tried to ask me why I want to go to the hospital and what is wrong with me, but I just couldn't tell them. It was too hard, and I didn't want to get all emotional and upset about it. 

I don't know why I'm feeling flat again now after they have left my room. I've been feeling flat all day, but because I've been busy, I haven't had time to focus on how I feel I suppose. 

[outlander]

glad you had a good time at the tulip festival @Birdofparadise8 soryr you didnt feel you could speak to your mum even though she reached out to you

[Birdofparadise8]

It was a nice day @outlander 

Yeah, I froze and my dad was there as well. It was too much for me and I didn't want to have to go over everything I am feeling, and for them both to be like oh Laura you shouldn't feel that way or it's my fault etc. 

[outlander]

doesnt sound like something they would say going off what youve said in the past but can understand. hope you can speak to them another day

[Birdofparadise8]

Mmm no they have spoken like that to me before @outlander 

[Kyle1]

no, @Birdofparadise8 I was talking about Swan Lake..

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh okay @Kyle1 

Sorry about that. 

[tyme]

Oh @Birdofparadise8 .

Be kinder to yourself. Sometimes, having a planned admission is a way to give ourselves a bit of respite and to reset. It's absolutely okay and nothing to be ashamed of. 

I've had many planned admissions - the longest being 6 weeks. But this was not an inpatient stay. It was at a prevention and recovery centre. But these stays are what I needed to stay well. 

If they ask next time, perhaps you can say that it's just for a bit of respite from the din of this world?

[outlander]

Okay @Birdofparadise8

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, I'll try @tyme 

Yes, I do hope it will be like that to give me an edge off and know I'm somewhere safe. Otherwise not working over the next week or so. I don't think I would be able to stay safe. 

What is a 'din of this word'?