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[rav3n]

@Snowie i wish i was a fast reader!! i'm so slow, sometimes if i can find a free audiobook on Youtube, i'll play it at double speed while tracing the words on the book with my finger to try finish the book quicker 😆 i used to reach heaps in school and then in covid, but last year i never finished a book so my 2025 goal is to finally finish some! i've started reading 2 self-help sort of books (it's a 'read on page per day' sort of book, they even have dates on it) and i've just started 'Ember in the Ashes' which is a fantasy novel. i usually like fantasy/romance and mystery/thriller/horror types of books. 

that sucks you have to pretend to be happy and positive, i can imagine the exhaustion. hopefully the forums and when you're reading are moments that the 'mask' comes off. and i'm glad you reached out to LL last night, that must've taken a lot of strength. are you doing anything for H's birthday?

[rav3n]

and hi @Bow hope your Friday's going well! gosh i'm the same with forgetting to drink water, sometimes i have to set alarms to remind myself to grab a cup. fb marketplace is sooo good, bought some hardcover books for cheap there.

[Snowie]

I've never listened to an audiobook before @rav3n Not sure how I would go. I don't even like listening to music so I don't think I could. I would much rather silence than lots of noise.

I think the last year I was a bit like that too. Started a book but didn't finish one. Did make a goal also for this year to read more.

Never heard of those books. Will have to look into them.

I'll be around people tomorrow night for SIL's b'day and then have H's on Sunday, so all smiles here 😔We will just have a family dinner Sunday night for H. I normally cook one of his favourite meals. I think by Monday I will fall into a heap.

Just heard back from another psych office. Only have tele health available. Another one down the drain.

I'm going to take my meds and head to bed. I think that's the best thing to do at this stage. 

Thanks for the company, chat and sitting with me. I appreciate it.

Thanks also @Bow 💗💗I hope your night goes ok.

[rav3n]

some audiobooks are quite annoying to listen to if i'm honest, like the reader sounds 'monotone' at times. some are expressive, i once listen to 'the hobbits' audiobook and they had fantasy music and nature sound effects in the background too which made it feel like i'm listening to a movie. @Snowie let's hope this year is OUR year when it comes to reading!!

oh woah, that's a very social weekend! really hope there's a place, even if its a toilet, for you to escape to when you need a break. H's birthday plans sound lovely too, it's always the best when we get our favourite meal on our birthdays!! fingers crossed it all goes okay!!

no worries at all, hope you get some good sleep tonight!! i'll catch up with you on Monday, good night 💜

[Snowie]

So got a call this morning from my psych's office saying she is back and has an in person appointment on Wednesday if I wanted it. Yea I thought, don't have to wait until Feb to see her. At last something good in happening. 

Unfortunately it's the same day when mum is getting surgery done and there is no one else to take her. So once again I've had to put my MH on the back burner for her. I really could have used that appt. especially with what I've been doing lately. I don't know how to approach today now. How can one small thing derail you.

[Eve7]

• I’m so sorry @Snowie 😢 sending lots of love ❤️🤗❤️

[Snowie]

Thanks @Eve7 

How are you?

Got lots to do before surgery?

[Eve7]

I’m overwhelmed today @Snowie so much to do with washing, hairdressers, shopping, uni..I don’t know where to start.

My cousin has sent me a picture of mum today. She’s asleep, totally exhausted after the weekend. 😢

[Snowie]

It must be overwhelming @Eve7 especially when you've got so much to do.

Step by step hon, try not to look too far ahead (I know, much easier said than done)

No doubt your mum is exhausted. Hopefully it can just be a chill day for her and she brightens up a little tomorrow or the next day.

[Eve7]

• Hairdressers ✅
• shopping ✅

That is all I’ve achieved today. How is your day going?