My Mosaic

[Bow]

Yes lots of puzzles and riddles @Jynx  haha I won’t tell! 

 

 

 

oh @Jynx  i was stressing last night. I was googling… can cats breed with siblings? What age can cats get pregnant? What are the signs?  These kittens are like 4 1/2- 5 mths old now. Was giving one of the girls a belly rub and her little nipples aren’t so little anymore?????

[Jynx]

Surely not @Bow ? Feels like they'd have some kind of inner instinct not to (humans have it, funnily enough - it's why people who are unrelated are generally not attracted to people when they're raised alongside one another eg with adoption). 

CUUUUUUTE, thanks for sharing!! Aww we gonna miss them! And their lil snoots!! And whiskers!! And silly little paws!! Awww 😭

[Bow]

It does happen apparently @Jynx  but I think maybe she is just on heat? But I did pick up my ol mate Boq, the only boy and have stern words with him.  Gave morrible her last treat of pineapple too. 

[Bow]

So sad having to say goodbye @Jynx  back home and it’s so quiet. No one coming up and curling up next to me. No little pitta pattas as they race through the room. 
need to hurry up and find a new house, move, settle in, so that we can get some more furbabies to love on. 

[Jynx]

@Bow honestly couldn't think of a better motivation to move quicker ahaha MUST ACQUIRE MORE KITTIES!!

[Bow]

Totally @Jynx  but no new house leads today 😩

how’s you?

[Jynx]

@Bow booooo!! Fingies crossed 🤞

I'm alright, just surfing that fun wave of hormone hell. The cramps are less today!! Woohoo!! 

Been also prepping some bits of wood/panel stuff I found lying around, I wanna make chalkboards for various purposes!!

You been in packing limbo still?

[Bow]

Oh yep I been in that same hormonal hell this week too @Jynx !  Every month it comes around i wish the gynae oncologist had let me just take it all out! 

Ooo chalk boards are fun! Our pantry cupboard, the plastic laminate was coming. The real estate told us to just pull it all off. We painted it with chalk board paint and now it’s a floor to ceiling chalkboard. We use it as a shopping list and weekly menu. And oh my gosh, can’t say how much less stressful meal time is since we have done a weekly menu! 

did you do anything with that old singer sewing machine table? 

We have been out most of today. Early drop off for the kittens. Then we had McDonald’s for breakfast- love me some hotcakes. Then we went to the massive thrift store warehouse. Found 4 more Alice books to add to my collection. Then we went to dollar world. Heaps big warehouse of real cheap stuff. We got lotsa craft supplies. Found these tie dye kits for $1. Paint, canvases, I got heaps of super glue for my rocks, tiny beauty scissors to cut out stuff for my book sculptures, modeling clay. Definitely will go back! And told my old SW about it for arts and craft supplies. 
D then had her eyes tested- doesn’t need glasses like we thought she did. 

chilled a bit when we got home. I called my SW. I sent her a text last night about what happened at group last night and she sent me a reply this morning and that they would be discussing it in team meeting this morning and she would call me afterwards. But I was driving so couldn’t take her call. Thought she would tell me some of the outcomes of the meeting this morning but when I called her this arvo she didn’t say anything. 

cleaned and packed the kitten stuff into a box. 

[Jynx]

@Bow omg MOOD... take it all out, take the titties, take the lot from me PLS! BYE BYE DYSPHORIA

so CLEVER!! I was gonna do like, chores list, grocery list type dealio, but also thought about like... making a sign for if I go to any trans protesty type events again. 

eep not yet it is in the shed at my partners' 🫣😅

Glad for no glasses for D!! Yippee!! And some bargains and hotcakes? Sounds like you did well to look after yourselves after an emotionally turbulent morning!! 

Aww hugs hun, it's hard hey 🫂🫂

[Bow]

TW: Body Image

Content/trigger warning

I hate my body, it’s very disgusting. The way that it sits on me, I don’t like how it feels. 

I look at the person in the mirror, I don’t recognize her. The reflection repulses me. 

When someone gives me a hug, I feel very self conscious of how much of me there is.

i notice how my clothes fit, how tight they feel around my waist and my stomach.

you might not have noticed but I’ve grown wider and it’s appalling. Shame. 

I feel it when I move. When I go to do things. Thin privilege won’t understand. 

I want to hide. Don’t look at me. Social isolation. Please don’t stare. I feel your eyes glancing. 

so repulsed. I hate you. Disgusting. Want to cut it all off

i hate you

i hate you