My Mosaic

[Jynx]

@Bow aww hun, did we discuss this briefly a lil while back? Feel like we did... but anyway, what I remember is talking about how much emotions can come up during this process and how it's good to take it really slow. Sounds like you've already gotten hit with a rollercoaster of emotion! 

Are these the kinds of things that like... you could ritualistically destroy? I am just reminded I have this coffee mug that my ex-bestie used to use, I want to like, full pelt HEAVE it at the ground and enjoy the catharsis of watching it shatter. Something like that?

[Bow]

It’s just stuff, but it’s all attached to some kind of meaning @Jynx  a memory, something. Some stuff is in boxes and crates from our last move that I haven’t even touched. Trying to declutter and get rid of things. 

hmm consumables that I shouldn’t have? I imagined how I might dispose of them by giving them to someone. Thought about who that somebody might be. But then just stashed them away again. 

but so many emotions today. All the feels. Finding old journals. Gosh some of them words were real dark. I was brave back then to allow them to be out on paper. 

read about how I use to cry a lot back then. Feel like a dry ol cow now days. 

[Jynx]

@Bow 

I know your brain tryna be mean by comparing you to a cow (heyyyyyy.... you stop that!! [Psst dw still accept all of you wholly even the means parts] kthxbye 🤣) but now I'm thinking about how cute cows are... they are just big puppy dogs and I kinda wish we were both cows... frolicking in a field... 🐄🐮

...instead of you know, in the world where taxes exist 😒

Anyway, my mind is all over the place tonight and I may need you to err... clarify what 'consumables' are in this context? You can use a TW or email if need be!

Do you intend to keep the journals? Hang onto that darkness? 

You don't have to feel ready or even think it's a good idea but... maybe they could fuel a fire huh? 

I actually love burning old pieces of the past I'm ready to release. Plus, fire = pretty! 

[Snowie]

Hi @Bow 

I know I haven't been around but have been thinking of you hon.

Sending much 💕💕

I hope your day goes well

[Bow]

I’ve spent all day in bed. I really wanted to go to church, so did daughter. But could hardly walk this morning. Back was so sore. Shoulder so sore too. 

[Bow]

Weekends are so hard @tyme 

[Bow]

Hey @RachSANECEO  I mentioned these to you ages ago, old SANE fact sheets that I was given when inpatient back in 2005. Found them again today while packing to move. Says down the bottom that Sane had a ‘bookshop’. 

 

 

 

 

 

[Bow]

Hi @rav3n  how was your Easter?

[rav3n]

hey @Bow my easter break was nice. i spent the long weekend with some family friends in a rental house near the VIC/NSW border. we played games, watched some movies and visited some markets - was so tempted to buy a bunch of stuff!! still feel like i need more rest though haha.

how was your Easter?

[Bow]

Oh yes I remember you saying that you were going away @rav3n glad you had a nice time away. 

I didn’t really get up to much. Packing and sorting. Spent most of yesterday in bed cause my back and shoulder was really bad. Was going to go to church, but oh well. 

now I am dealing with my daughter who is having a big meltdown. I don’t cope well with them 😩