My Mosaic

[tyme]

Sounds so hard. I think in the past, I had the Friday blues because it means I have limited supports over the weekend. @Bow 

Hope things improve for you.

[Bow]

We all know the answer to that

[tyme]

Hugs @Bow .

Your bro is still with you, right?

[Bow]

Yes @tyme 

[tyme]

Do you feel this is a trigger @Bow ?

I'm here if you need a chat.

[Bow]

It’s not helping my already extremely unstable state @tyme 

[tyme]

Hugs @Bow . I remember you saying that it was good to see him, but it could also bring up some difficult things. 

Do you find engaging in your projects, helpful at all? 

[Bow]

Yeah @tyme 

When we were kids, after our parents separated, dad’s girlfriends kids use to make us play really inappropriate games. It was horrible. We had no choice. So even though it was not his choice, he was made to do things to me. Not really ever talked much about it. Just another piece of trauma thrown on the pile. 

I do spend a fair bit of time doing my own thing in my room. He spends most of the time with mum. 

[tyme]

So sorry to hear @Bow . It sounds so hard to have to in a way, 'relive' those memories. Does your mum know? (Once again, no pressure to respond).

I just want to you know that I'm here for you.

[Bow]

Nah she doesn’t know @tyme  ive never told her. I don’t even know if my brother remembers that stuff. 

I was very much treated differently compared to the other kids. The gf’s 3 kids and my brother… they all lived together. And I came to visit every second weekend. I was the outsider. I didn’t even have my own bed @tyme and often slept in a bed that another kid had wet in. I can still remember the smell as I went to sleep. 

its hard to get my head around sometimes that kids that age knew of such things and did it to others their age. It’s really messed up