My Mosaic

[Bow]

Very much reminds me of my childhood spent at my pops during the holidays @Jynx  down the west coast of tassie. Lotsa rain. Tin roof. 

Ummm what is bapped?? SW was kinda supportive. She let me talk, talked through what all happened yesterday and last night (I went to arts and craft and I am finding it more and more challenging being there. Being very overstimulated. Third week in a row where one particular person is there and just does not stop talking. Constantly saying they ain’t on a high, ain’t manic, ain’t this ain’t that. And they sat right next to me yesterday. I eventually pulled my headphones out and turned some music on. Should have done it sooner cause I was already not coping) I think that just put me in a bad place for the rest of the day. I told her I wasn’t getting up to go to my appointments and she did kinda lecture me about how important therapy is yada yada. I know that. She in the end offered to do a home visit but I said no not today. Wasn’t up for it. 

day off tomorrow?! Gotta take care of lil Jynx. Snooze. Snuggle with kitties. And watch tv. Eat comfort foods.

crafting today. It’s not done yet. But I did lots of measuring, marking, folding, measuring, cutting and folding. I need to figure out how to do the middle but now. 

 

[Jynx]

@Bow oh lush, I love Tassie!! Well... I love it as a tourist lol. I wouldn't be able to live there unless they managed to deal with all the transphobia and homophobia that's suuuper bad down there. 

lol I usually would use it in relation to cats!! Like my cat bapped the toy around, just means like softly whacking something. I was legit picturing you getting bapped around like a ragdoll by a bunch of unruly kittens!! 

Oof, yeah overstimulation is a TIME. Definitely okay to employ headphones asap next time!! Or maybe take a couple weeks off? 

Yes! Very that!! Much horizontalling hehehe. But I might even do some gardening, my succulents have been needing a repotting for like... ooh idk 6 months? ahaha 

What about you? 

OMG yes! You said you wanted to give that cool book display a go, wow it's coming along!! Very fiddly business by the looks!

[Bow]

Oh yeah I think a lot of people down in tassie are like that…. It’s very old school stuck in your ways kinda people @Jynx  not exposed to stuff

ah ok…. I’ve never heard of that before I don’t think so

yeah … apparently the worker on yesterday running group kinda seen what was going on for me and had mentioned it to my SW today. My SW said it’s totally ok to use my headphones. I just don’t wanna appear rude and not wanting to be part of the group. It’s not just the arts and craft I go for after all, I could just stay home and do that. I go to be part of the group, socialise and be part of something. 

I have very much neglected most of my plants…. Outside ones in particular. Lots are dead! I did give my indoor ones a bit of a trim a couple of days ago cause the kitties were playing with them. 

Tomorrow kitties are off to the clinic for vaccinations and I think they will be booked in for desexing too for a couple of weeks time… which will mean goodbye 

[Jynx]

@Bow yeah it's like a whole state with a country town vibe lol

Hmm I have thoughts about this!! First off - who says that just sharing space isn't social? You know body doubling? It's like that! Sometimes I think it's really nice to not feel obliged to fill every silence with small talk.

Secondly, if the point is to be social but going is actually draining for you at the moment, I still say there's no reason not to take a breather for a week or two. If the thing that's supposed to be helpful is causing distress, ain't gonna be much point anyway right? And maybe after a week or so away, you'll find yourself craving it instead of dreading it!

Maybe you can wear your headphones, and a lil button or note that just says 'I'm here for the vibes, but open to chatting' or something!

Ahaha as soon as I got Trixie my succulents got soooo neglected - I think you're off the hook!! Tiny fuzzballs with claws do tend to keep one's attention a lot longer than lil pot plants 😝

Nooooo that's so soon!! Oh you poor dear that's gonna be tough. Will you foster again this year you reckon? 

[Bow]

Haha that’s so true @Jynx ! I grew up in a country town of about 2000, just about everyone knew everyone’s business and you couldn’t go to town without seeing a few people ya knew. 

I like to sit there in silence and just do my thing. There is the occasional conversation. But this one particular person….. it’s still the highlight of my week and I look forward to it, it’s just recent weeks that I haven’t been coping with the noise. 
I think my SW was kind of hinting at whether it was a helpful place for me to be at the moment. Maybe next week I will give the headphones a go straight away and see if that helps. 

oh my plants have been neglected for a long time! Long long time! I can’t blame the kitties lol 

yeah will definitely do more fostering. Not sure when kitten season starts and ends, but they post all available kittens on FB or via email, so will keep an eye out. 

this book is becoming very time consuming! I’m itching to get the fun part started! But more cutting and folding first. 

[Jynx]

@Bow oh wow!! That puts my 17,000 home town to shame... and I thought THAT was small enough for the same thing... everyone knowing who you are.... Wowsers! 

Let us know how you go with it!! You don't owe anyone your energy if you need it for yourself!! And like... idk, part of me is wondering why this person is being allowed to sorta... disrupt the vibe every week? 

We can still blame the kitties if you like... I won't tell anyone, promise!! "It's their fault your honour I swear I'm not a plant murderer!!" Hahaha

I have to skedaddle!! I hope the book doesn't give you too much trouble hehe. Catch you next week poppet 💜

[Bow]

Hi @rav3n  not sure if your still around but was thinking about you earlier cause I hadn’t seen you about?

[rav3n]

hiii @Bow i'll be finishing up soon but i'm here 😊 

how are you? 

[Bow]

Fairly crummy @rav3n  but it doesn’t matter

how are you?

[rav3n]

matters to me @Bow please don't hesitate to reach out to tyme as well if you wanna talk more about it!! i'll chat to you next week as well 😊

i'm tired haha just came back from my Bali trip yesterday and my sleep cycle hasn't synced up yet. 

take care, hope the lil kitties, groot and D are all well 💜