My Mosaic

[Bow]

Hate that things have to be sensored on here and I can’t talk freely- don’t hate on me. Im fearful of a repeat of Saturday night as dinner time fast approaches. I can feel my anxiety building. Yes I’ve contact the Helpdesk still feel the same. 

[Bow]

What started as a way to control has now taken control. 

If I fail I spiral and do stupid bad things.

if I win this thing continues to destroy me.

can win at anything. Why try

[Snowie]

Keep talking here @Bow 

Listening hun 💜💜

[Bow]

i can’t do tonight I wish I had my own space no judgement no nagging no watching me making sure I do the right thing

This is my eternal punishment for ever being born

I wasn’t wanted then 

not wanted now

everything goes wrong

[Emelia8]

I'm here with you @Bow , listening and being heartbroken about how you are feeling right now.

I'm also concerned about you.  I wish there was something I could say or do to make things better for you.

But all I can do is to listen and to sympathise, and to worry about you. Please stay safe sweetie. 

I care about you, and only want the best for you.

Emelia 🤗💞

[Jupiter]

I'm not sure exactly what is happening for you tonight @Bow but we are here and sitting with you. Keep talking about it if that's helpful 

[Bow]

Such a failure

another one to the list

Wish I hadn’t of started

wish I wasn’t here 

😭

[Bow]

Think it’s best I just go 

[Jynx]

Take care of yourself @Bow, know we are here if you need.

[Bow]

why do i do this to myself i feel so sick and so much stomach cramps.

no one understands ive created my own hell

feels like there is no way back. 

backwards and forwards

winning and lossing

in control out of control