Listening to triggering music

[creative_writer]

@tyme I don’t know why these OCD thoughts want to persist. Like I know I could reframe them. But at the end of the day, I believe it wasn’t my fault but I also believe it was my fault. I don’t know how that works but the brain is incredibly confusing

[creative_writer]

I found a psych but I’m not sure she is taking new clients, though I’ve sent an email to enquire. I feel absolutely useless and feel like I have too many requirements

[tyme]

You feel you have 'too many requirements' is an interesting one. I felt that in the past. That my needs were too 'beyond' anyone. And you know the response I got from a clinician? This is the work they thrive on. They CHOOSE to work with such clients. @creative_writer 

So it depends on who you get. 

[creative_writer]

@tyme I had to search through so many psych profiles till I found one I am willing to give a go. There are so many factors like therapeutic modalities, specialisation with certain mental health conditions, even culture. Having all these requirements can make finding a therapist challenging as I need something very specialised. I just hope this psych can fit me in, or at least put me on the waitlist. I’m tired of living this way, sometimes I feel so hopeless

[creative_writer]

My chest feels weird, or maybe it’s nothing. Kind of reminds me of……I know this feeling.

Maybe I should be quiet, but I’m so panicky today

[tyme]

What else would be helpful tonight @creative_writer ?

[creative_writer]

@tyme my mind is so scattered, nothing makes sense. I don’t even know what I need. Emotional pain can’t be wiped, it has to be felt 😔. I don’t know what to say because nothing is coming out, I feel trapped and paralysed