I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Hey @Ru-bee 

Ive done 2 loads of washing and was going to bath the dogs but Pix is sick so I'm not going to do it. I’ll just let her sleep.

Other than that I’ve just been sitting doing some Lego. I’ve nearly finished another one. Yesterday it felt like something I was forcing myself to do. Today I’m not minding actually. Still not enjoying it as such but I’ll stick with it. 

Getting errands done feels good, at least you can feel like accomplishing something. Oh how sweet he is sitting on your lap. That in itself feels like love. 

Oh it was so frustrating. I’ve just ordered stairs so she will be able to climb in and off the lounge as she wishes. It would be good to be able to communicate better. I’d like to be able to ask her how she is feeling. She uses the stairs in the bedroom and climbed in my bed at about 9 and hasn’t moved since. 

[Ru-bee]

That's nice to note that you're noticing that things are feeling a bit easier today with the lego @Captain24 

Good on you for doing the washing. I've just noticed the sun is out so now I'm wondering if I should put a load on... Nah it can wait until the weekend 😋

Ohhh sweet little Pix needing the steps to get on and off furniture. Poor thing being under the weather, it's hard seeing your pets not feeling well and not be able to ask how they are. That's actually when I wish I could talk to them the most - especially when I have the take them to the vet and I want to explain that it's okay

[Captain24]

I’ve been working really hard lately and feel like some things are shifting. @Ru-bee. Self talk seems to be helping. I’m trying to make myself do things. My GP said if I wait for motivation it probably wont come. I have to do it myself. 

My washing won’t dry but at least it’ll dry a little. It’s sunny but not very warm. Washing can always wait! Today’s couldn’t though as I need my jumpers for work and I go back tomorrow! 

She only has little legs and a stocky body. So she cant jump very well. The stairs in my room have been a godsend so that’s why I ordered more for the lounge. 

She has just eaten lunch and looks a little better. She is drinking a lot of water. Poor baby isn’t herself though you can see it in her eyes. 

Pix understands a lot of what you are saying and knows words like treat and bone even if it’s just in conversation she is quite intelligent. Poor Jett isnt very smart though! 

How’s Toby settling in? 

[Ru-bee]

That's awesome that you've been putting in that work and that you're seeing a bit of change come from it @Captain24 That is pretty great advice from your GP, sometimes we just can't wait for the motivation to come to us, we need to make it happen.

Aw I'm glad she's perking up a little bit! I think Jett sounds a bit like Toby...there's not too much going on up there but they're happy like that.

Toby's settling in pretty well! He would like to be by my side all day everyday if I let him, which is adorable. He just wants to snuggle alllllll the time. I feel a bit bad because he's not as attached to my partner, I think he might have had negative experiences with men because he can be a bit wary, but he does still cuddle up with him if I'm off doing something else. One annoying thing is that he's becoming quite protective of the house and likes to bark when our neighours go past, so we're working on that at the moment 😅

Do you have much else on for the day or is it a lego-filled afternoon?

[Captain24]

I crashed really badly and wasn’t sure that I would actually make it through. Then things shifted and I felt a little lighter. While feeling a bit better I listened to what everyone had been telling me and was able to try. I think eating healthily helped as well @Ru-bee 

Yeah.. Jets happy and nothing much really bothers him. 

Im glad he is settling in well. Pixie has never had a bad experience with men but she is frightened of them except her pop. She loves him.

It may take some more time or maybe he just feels closer to you. Mums dog does but she still loves dad. If her leaves when he comes back she is so excited to see him. 

Aarrgghhh… guarding the house is fun!! Just remember I have two chihuahuas, imagine the noise when people walk past. The footpath is on my side of the road. 

I just had a little nap. I’m feeling really tired with the whole not feeling like I’m worth bothering about. But it was a little rest and now I’m up doing Lego again. Constantly checking my bank balance to see if my pay has gone in

[Ru-bee]

I'm so pleased to hear that things were able to shift and that you're starting to reap the rewards of all your hard work @Captain24! 

Yeah I think a lot of things with Toby are just going to take time, we've only had him since May but he's doing so good, so I think he'll get there eventually. 

Oh no....yep I can imagine that noise hahaha we have two little dogs next door who seem to be outside constantly and they start up any time you step one foot out the front door.

I know that feeling of just waiting for the pay to come through. I saw that you sent your brother money so it sounds like there's that added financial stress right now. Wouldn't it be wonderful to be one of those "comfortable" people you hear about who don't really check their bank accounts? That would be a dream

[Captain24]

I’m a little proud of myself @Ru-bee 

He will get there. He could still be unsure if you’re going to leave him too. But they are loving and loyal companions and you won’t remember life without him. I think a dog makes a home. 

They are so loud and don’t stop! I should have trained them better but it’s in their breed. 

Yeah I gave him all the money I had. That’s why I haven’t had any food. I had enough to get me through until he wanted it. I was that person that was comfortable until I started paying for all my MH appointments. It’s over $1000 a month and it’ll be more while I’m off work as I can see my psych more regularly. 

[Captain24]

 

[Ru-bee]

So cute @Captain24! Love it! 

[Captain24]

Thanks @Ru-bee 

I did reply to you earlier too.