I can’t cope

[Captain24]

It’ll take me a little while to get to it @Snowie. I don’t read much. 

I didn’t see the fountain garden but it looks really good. If I didn’t have last night off work I’d order it so I could get the tweety bird one. I love tweety. 

Do you do Lego often?

[tyme]

@Snowie , have you finished with ECT? How do you feel after it? Do you do anything in an attempt to maintain how things are for you?

@Captain24 , I have a lot of issue with directing focus. I hyperfocus a lot and struggle with sounds/noise. A few people (who I've never discussed these challenges with) automatically said I have ADHD. Actually, they just assumed. One person said, "Oh, because you're ADHD like me, ...." I was thinking.. I never said I was ADHD. This has happened a few times. 

So I was talking to my coach about it and she was like, "Oh, I'm an adult ADHD assessor. I can do some of the paper work for you if you are interested." So I shared some of my challenges, and talked through why I may not want the dx. I said that I didn't want to take more meds. So she said she herself has ADHD and even though she's been an assessor for years, she never considered she had it herself. ALso she said she only takes meds when she NEEDS to concentrate in a big meeting or something. 

She also noted it was interesting that I have been diagnosed with BPD because some of the symptoms are very similar...

Sorry for the long story @Captain24 . I don't even know who I've mentioned it to on the forums anymore lol - ADHD brain??

[Captain24]

Bipolar and ADHD are similar as well @tyme 

I guess you could look into it and decide then. I get not wanting to take more meds. I don’t know about you but I’m on a lot! 

I don’t have a Pdoc so I’ve got no chance in finding out.  But I don’t really need anymore diagnosis’s to my name!

A friend was doing an online test as she thinks she may have it. Her son does but I’d say his father has it. Luckily he has nothing to do with his son. But as she was doing the online test she thought of me. A lot of the questions fitted for what she knows about me. 

[Snowie]

I used to read a lot @Captain24 I'm trying to get back into it.

I don't lego a lot, but have done a few sets. Both my kids love lego. My S has a lot of motorbikes and star wars sets and D does a lot of the flower one's and all the Formula 1 cars.

I have a lot of the flower one's scattered around my house!!

I haven't finished with ECT yet @tyme When I went into hospital I had 12 sessions over 4 weeks. When I got out they arranged for me to have it every 4 weeks. I have it this coming Friday. They call it "maintenance ECT".

Does it help? I'm not sure, but I guess it has kept me out of hospital. Was it the ect or other things? I don't really know.

I have had quite a few ups and downs lately. I guess at the moment it's an up. I just hope I don;t crash and burn.

[Captain24]

I love that she has formula 1 cars! @Snowie. I have a few cars in my wish list. Anything I like goes in there and then I gradually buy them. 

I did have some Lego on display on my tv unit but Jett decided he liked them more! So now they are all just chucked into a cupboard. I should really buy some bookshelves so I can put them in the spare room. I decided if I build a new house it’ll have 5 bedrooms so I can have a Lego room. I’m not even joking! 

[Snowie]

D is obsessed with formula 1 @Captain24 She watches all the races, has some merchandise. Her dream is to go to a race in person! I have one of the cars in my lounge room.

A lego room does sound cool! For now you might have to buy some book shelves!!

Naughty Jett 🤦‍♀️

[Captain24]

I’ve taken my meds in the hope of getting some sleep. I may have self medicated a little. Hopefully it brings on sleep quicker. 

[Captain24]

That’s cool. I’m sure she will get there one day: @Snowie. I love seeing girls into that kind of stuff. 

Yeah book shelves it needs to be. I can’t afford to build again. It’s so much more expensive than it was. 

Jetts an arsehole!! He gets into everything. 

He was just on my lap and wouldn’t let Pix come up! 

[tyme]

Oh @Captain24 . Yes.. that too! The psych and others sent me online tests. All the test came out and 'highly likely'.

I'm sorry, but I have to wrap up now. I'm a bit behind tonight. 

Please rest up @Captain24 @Snowie . I'll catch you tomorrow!

[Snowie]

I'm sure she will get there one day too @Captain24 She has never been girly, even when she was younger.

Jett certainly sounds like or thinks he's in charge!!

Goodnight @tyme @Captain24 

Time for me to log off too. My bed is calling out to me.

I hope you wake up feeling better hon.

Thanks for the chat and company tonight 💗