I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’ve given up on me @Snowie 

Safe trip and I hope you get some sleep. 

Thanks for tonight

[Captain24]

I have a pounding headache. 

The stress is getting to me I think. 

Its making the will to live even harder

[Captain24]

I can’t sleep. The thoughts won’t stop. 

Why do I need to be here?

Is there any point? 

[Captain24]

I’ve gotten back out of bed. Probably not the smartest move but I just couldn’t lay the crying anymore. What do I do? 

[Captain24]

Back in bed to get some sleep for nightshift. 

I don’t want to go to work. I don’t want to do anything. 

I just wish I didn’t have to live anymore.

I can’t keep going in like this. I don’t want to

[GardensHeart]

Hey @Captain24 , 

I know life can get quite hard sometimes, all the things we have to do, responsibility we have to take. Some times we all find it hard to carry on, but out of all the negative things, some very small things can give us a smile. For me it can be looking for my fur babies peacefully sleeping. Hope this can give you some strengths. You are not alone. 

[Snowie]

Hi @Captain24 

I'm sorry to hear things didn't turn out good.

I hope you were able to eventually get some sleep.

If I don't talk to you, I hope that your shift goes ok tonight.

[Snowie]

Hi @Captain24 

I know you've been working nights so probably sleeping days.

Just coming past to check in on you.

Sending 💕💕

[Captain24]

I wasn’t going to come on here but I need to right now. 

I am feeling really alone and isolated in my life.

Facing the year that was and the year that’s coming. 

Last year wasn’t that great. Emergency services called on me a couple of times. They took me away once. It was traumatic. Suicide attempts and hospital stays. Rush to hospital with a suspected heart attack. The traumatic experience that happened there. The guy is still alive at the moment. 

This year isn’t shaping up well. Everything is changing. Is it worth facing the new year or do I give up now. 

Im not sure what is going to happen tonight. But I don’t wish to be here anymore. I’m just sitting on my lounge with my 2 babies in tears. Not wanting to face what will probably turn out to be another wasted year. 

I said I wouldn’t be vocal so I will just keep the rest to myself. I just had to let some of it out. 

[Shaz51]

Ohh hugs my @Captain24 , sitting with you my friend 🧡 

You can tag me anytime xx

I see @Snowie , @GardensHeart have been here with you too 

Here if you want to chat 

My hearing aid is playing up big time but can't get it fixed yet 

But don't need the hearing here on the forum 

And @tyme will be back Thursday