I can’t cope

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 , 

Sorry, I had to get hop off for a bit. Back on now. All good.

Yes, those trees sound so so special! Do you have photos of them?

Sorry to hear your mind is wandering.

[Captain24]

Are you ok? @tyme. If it’s to much think of yourself not us.

They are just 2 sticks. Mum reckons they will grow from that. 

My mind is planning things. I’m going to drive a different way to work so it’s not the same road. 

Sorry.. no more dumping on you. I should stop being inconsiderate. 

Hows the kids or have you not been seeing them?

[tyme]

I think things are a bit crappy for the both of us at the moment @Captain24 ?

I'm looking forward to tackling it though. I'm not about to give up. 

Sorry the thoughts are still there.

[Captain24]

What can you do for yourself? @tyme. 

Distraction chat?? 

[tyme]

I guess @Captain24 

[Captain24]

Any kid antics to share? @tyme 

O was trying to watch tv and I couldn’t hear it for the two dogs running and playing. Jetts so vocal. It’s lucky he can’t talk cause he’d never shut up! 

I just sent you an email. 

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

How are you going today? 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

I'll be back at 8:30pm. Chat soon.

Things are much better today - after a good rest.

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

I practiced some mindfulness using the Smiling Mind app last night. 

Then, today, I spoke to a therapist about what's going on. 

I feel so much better today. 

Also, tomorrow, it you are around, I'll be free to chat around 2-4pm? I'm not staying on, but I'll be free to chat then. I feel I haven't spoken to you much.

[Captain24]

I’m glad you are feeling better @tyme. I came home from work and the first thing I did was message you! 

I’m not around then, I’ll be at work…

Ill be around at around 8 on Sunday night. 

We haven’t really talked much. But I guess we both have lots going on. 

I stood up for myself today! I was getting belittled on the 2 way and I gave it back to him. He’s an arrogant pig so it probably didn’t go well that I answered back. I did spend the next hour crying though. 

Also. I drove to work a different way and there was no risky behaviour as I don’t know the road. On the way home I came the normal way and it all came back. Escape plans and all.