Everything music

[TAB]

i'm a 1962 model @PeppyPatti 

[TAB]

https://youtu.be/22Z4Tv1zn-s?si=0a5Rtz2ENPY_8JQj

@greenpea 

@PeppyPatti @StuF 

[StuF]

It's just scary that that is from 15 years ago @greenpea !

I wonder what happened to Eskimo Joe anyway?

[PeppyPatti]

I'm 1967.

I cant work out how to pay TAFE. 

[TAB]

..tafe is free in WA ok or more free than ..somewhere .. lol @PeppyPatti 

[PeppyPatti]

Hi @tyme 

@Because I studied Psychotherapy for years but I was laughed at a lot by other students. 

But one woman knew. She was/is a counsellor for people on the streets and or using illegal substances. She gave me a lot of support. 

This is years before COVID. 

One day the teacher asked if anyone was having a dream that needed interpreted. 

I stuck up my hand and he chose me. I started saying " I am in a train with my two sons. They are 12 and 8 years old. The train was going slowly, we didn't mind because we like things slowing down.  We are watching beautiful plants and trees going past the train. So much beauty. 

So the teacher says" thank goodness you don't mind if you study for years and your prepared to do that .  then some other stuff. 

I answered " Because this afternoon, I'm taking son to the hospital to see if his brain tumour is beginning to grow again and I'm scared about it. " 

So he's jumping up and down screaming he never heard what I'm coping with. I'm staring at him and I stood up and walked out never to go back again. That other woman who was supporting me came out too. 

So all these morons, a couple of University Professors, well meaning people. Not one person asked me if I was ok. They did group study nights and talked about it but I was never invited. And they wanted to be Psychotherapists. 

I went to a few other classes throughout the years.

And now I feel I haven't really achieved anything - but I don't want to be a counsellor but it's more self interest. 

I don't get paid, I have no allegiance to my ex husband but I'm there being the only person he can trust. With my husband.

I think I want to understand more ....

Also I have no friends except two people who I see once a year for a big catch up and if would be nice to maybe get a friend  

[tyme]

Awww. Thank you for sharing that heartfelt story. I'm sorry the professors didn't check in with you. It must have felt so lonely. 

It is so powerful in that you want to understand more in order to help your ex. 

Just a note, I'm not sure counselling will go into too much in this regard. Also, there is a practical element to the course. Do you feel you will be able to do it?

You really have such a big heart. 

You are too amazing. Once again, thank you for your story.

[TAB]

thats heavy @PeppyPatti 

https://youtu.be/bej93aPldHE?si=QvBmsgJWKz2vXxpP

[PeppyPatti]

Yeah 

Iv had a few situations like that. 

whats practical mean ? 

Iv had over 20 years of therapy maybe 6 years twice per week.  I'll be fine. I'm pretty focused on learning my own people .who I feel is relevant. 

I'm sure I'll be fine but welle see. 

Iv never felt worth for many years. I didn't get visitors making me free meals. I worked as a house cleaner for years and studying. I sort of feel after all these years -- not one person would remember that time. But I do know every night  those people who went to Psychotherapy class are still going to bed every night being exactly like they are when I was in class.

So who cares ? I who survived and is willing to go back to basics or them ? Who didn't ask a very vulnerable 30 yr old if she was ok ?!  

 @tyme my life was so tough for years. Not like others but like mine. The changes of how my head was affected made me become very vulnerable and I have memories of been taken  advantage of for years and years - but today

@tyme all my dreams are becoming true.  it's not all about money too. 

[tyme]

Truly amazing @PeppyPatti  🙂 

So proud of what you have achieved and become because of it.