Never being in a relationship

[Appleblossom]

Hearing you about feeling rejected by the opposite sex.  It can really hurt if we put our whole being into it. Our inner wounds can easily get triggered but others don't define you. I decided against the online dating thing.I tried it a while back but it was not right for me. So I am sticking with... If I don't meet someone in real life I am not meant to meet them.

@TheRenegade345 

I identify as on the spectrum and am hopeless at the girl boy stuff... I am older so you think I'd have figured it out a bit.

I think you have a lot of courage to share your sensitivity and experience. 

I take solace in appreciation of my independence and sense that a bad relationship can be worse than none.

Take care 

Apple 

[TheRenegade345]

@Appleblossom 

I hear you and I am glad to hear that you have boundaries about how to meet someone.

I think we are all different. I have been on my own for years and would like to be in a relationship. I think its me hitting the proverbial "working-on-myself" brick wall lately and I feel absolutely done.

I feel like I have a lot of love to give too and I just want to express this side of me. I hate feeling suppressed.

[TheRenegade345]

I cant sop feeling triggered. This life I live is hell

[rav3n]

hey @TheRenegade345 sounds like you're overwhelmed, what's happening for you?

[TheRenegade345]

@rav3n 

Every single day, people talk about relationships and how happy they are. I am surrounded by others who feel supported and loved (in a romantic way). I dont have that at all and I hate it. I am now officially planning, I cant take this world. There is no support for this issue and all the resources I find on the Internet are all about people who already have a relationship. I cant deal with this anymore.

[optimisticc]

Hi @TheRenegade345,

I'm sorry to hear how much you are suffering with this. I have sent you an email checking in with you. If you are feeling suicidal please call LifeLine on 13 11 14 or 000 if in immediate danger. I encourage you to keep reaching out here for support

optimisticc

[Ru-bee]

Hey @TheRenegade345 it sounds like things felt really overwhelming and isolating last night. I just wanted to check in and let you know that we're here for you

[tyme]

Hey @TheRenegade345 , What exactly does this support look like that you are longing for? 

Do you think focusing your energy on something you don't have is helpful?

Have you been at work?

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme 

Isn’t that a part of life when you don’t have something and you want it to be some of your energy into making it a reality?

You don’t have a house? You try to save money so you can buy one or rent one.

You don’t know how to play the guitar? You spend 10-15 minutes everyday practicing. 
You want more friends? You try to find new ways of meeting others.

I don’t focus on this entirely, I have other things I do. I’m making a concept album right now and have finished half of it. Ive lost a good portion of weight since last year. 

ive also done the “just focus on your hobbies and interests and people will come into your life”. It’s a fallacy. It’s not true, and it’s a complete lie. We’ve all been sold this lie about life. It’s why I hate this planet so much.

See, everything I do is wrong. No matter how hard I try or what I do with my life, it’s always the wrong thing. I hate this so much, I’m done trying and I’m done trying to exist on this planet. Maybe this is why I suck at dating because I’m one of those people where everyone sees fault in me and runs away from me. 

[tyme]

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@TheRenegade345 wrote:

Maybe this is why I suck at dating because I’m one of those people where everyone sees fault in me and runs away from me. 

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Actually, now that you say this, it really makes me think @TheRenegade345 . If you can't 'love' yourself, how can you expect others to? That is the thought I am having. 

As for longing for the things you don't have, I feel that there is a difference between hoping and 'dictating' that something MUST go a certain way? I'm not really good at explaining it. 

So I guess with hoping, it's the idea that you keep going in hope of achieving something. 

Whereas the 'other thing' (don't know the word) is when you tell yourself you MUST have something or like is not worth it. 

I can give examples, but I don't know the right words to use. Sorry.

Anyway, good to read you have been working on your album. How was your day otherwise?