who me?

[Former-Member]

Not sure where to start, however... I've battled depression for a very long time. But at the beginnig of this year, i was forced to face the fact that it is an illness and had completely stopped me from living life. I tried to end my life, failed and ended up in hospital for a month to change medications. I recieved a diagnosis of Major depression with psychosis which has been frightening. I havent been well enough to go back to work but I have begun to enjoy certain things in my daily life that I havent for a long time. I've never not worked though, and that is giving me a lot of time to fill that i havent had to before. It's a strange feeling and not easy!

Anyway, i guess i've never been on a forum like this, and i'm not sure if all of that is overshare or not! 

LisaJane

[Alessandra1992]

Welcome @Former-Member
Maybe the universe has bigger plans for you!
And maybe you didn't fail, you succeeded in getting help that you needed!
Not over sharing, we call it being honest.
I think it is great that you are enjoying activities that you probably haven't enjoyed in daily life for a long time because you were too busy working.
Some times our breakdowns are our breakthroughs!
Be kind to yourself as filling in time has it's own challenges..

[Hobbit]

Hi @Former-Member 

Firstly, a very big welcome to the forums.

It sounds like you have had a truly terrible time of it. I feel for you. The thing is, you are still here and reaching out to people - good on you for that!! You will find a lot of people here on these forums who want to give you a lot of support and practical advice, I'm sure.

Please know that your post is not overshare at all. We are really happy to have you a part of our little online community here, and welcome you with open arms!! (cyber-arms anyway!!)

I would like to introduce you to some of our wonderful members - @kristin @Alessandra1992 @PeppiPatty @kenny66 @Rick 

I did read that you have started to enjoy certain things in your daily life that you haven't for a long time. Let's talk about those - what are you enjoying? What would you like to do more of?

Keep posting lisajane, and a very BIG WELCOME once again

Hobbit

[Former-Member]

Thankyou everyone for your welcoming and understanding words. It seems to b a supportive space here,
Lisajane

[kenny66]

Hi

Nice to speak to you.

I have been quite lucky in that depression is only a relatively small part of my MI. Mostly I am pretty happy, although sometimes I misbehave.

I found that as things progress along you do embrace some aspects of your MI. Like a lot of things there are some positive aspects to, in my case schizophrenia, but in other MI as well.

I have mentioned before the creativity and complexity of thought and the more mellow tinge that can settle on us.

There is so much support, including this forum, surrounding us focused towards supporting people with MI. The important thing is to identify the source of that support and use it.

I spend two days a week in the the mental health clinic, which I hated at first, but now enthusiastically look forward to as one of the strategies to keep me well.

There are many negative and positive things about mental illness. Removed from being an active participant in the workforce, which I also hate as I love to work, has on the other hand allowed me adopt a different perception of myself and other people. 

kenny

[Jon22]

I totally agree with @Alessandra1992
I would say too what she just said.