Let`s talk about Bipolar

[Former-Member]

@bipolarbunny @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @greenpea @Mazarita @frog @eth @Sophie1 @HenryX @Olga @Meowmy @Dimity @SJT63 @Klutz  

and anyone else that I may have missed.

@bipolarbunny mentioned somewhere about dissociation. I was wondering if it is normal, acceptable to be physically raised up out of the chair when dissociated and be 'walked'  out of the clinic to our car in a dissociate state. I was totally freaked out when a loud noise happened and ended up wanting to vomit in the car. It took me a few days to feel okay again. This isn't the first time either. My question I suppose is can this be damaging/dangerous to a person when unaware of what's going on? Does this happen to you too?

[Mazarita]

Hi everyone,

Late last night I was reading @bipolarbunny's outstanding poetry in the 'Writing as a Form of Therapy' thread. Leaving a link here for anyone who may be interested to read a wonderful piece of her writing about living with bipolar: "And Just Like That".

https://saneforums.org/t5/Looking-after-ourselves/Writing-As-A-Form-Of-Therapy/m-p/1023781/highlight...

@Appleblossom @HenryX @Former-Member @frog @Shaz51 @eth @Meowmy @greenpea @Dimity and all. 

[bipolarbunny]

@Mazarita Thank you for your kind words! 🤗❤️

BB 🐰❤️

[bipolarbunny]

@Former-Member I've had this conversation in a manner of speaking with my therapist. 

His concern about dissociation, especially with me is if I completely black out and lose control of myself during a manic rage and or suicidal ideation. The obvious fear or danger is what the blacked out version of me will do when I am not no longer in control. Thankfully I have never completely blacked out, I think they call it a fugue state or dissociative amnesia?

For the most part it affects me when I feel overwhelmed or unsafe. I shrink into the back of my head and sit there as an observer to what's going on but I do not feel like I am actively participating. I've had this sensation on and off for most of my life. 

To be honest it feels like it has saved me more times than it has caused major issues. It's almost like when I can't handle a situation the vulnerable me takes a step back in my head, while this other side of me that can actually cope takes over. But there have been times this has happened in reverse. Where the side of me that can cope has been trapped in my head while the vulnerable side has been out getting beat up by the world. I don't know if that makes sense or not. 

I too am interested to see if anyone else has similar dissociative episodes. 

BB 🐰❤️

[Former-Member]

To be physically moved and in a state that you can’t talk and are shut down....can this be dangerous to our minds

[Shaz51]

@Sophie1  wrote:

my partner has bipolar II / major depression / generalised anxiety/ chronic migraines and is heavily medicated and I am her carer and I work full time from home .. I also have mild anxiety/depression myself and take a small amount of medication

currently covid has enabled me to care better for my partner MsS as I can work from home all the time and can monitor for manic episodes and help get her out of the house and doing small chores very occasionally... I love that I know what she is up to everyday - I worry less and am learning how to help her more on a daily basis now I know the reality of her abilities

@Sophie1 , Is being at home working for you and MS S ?? can you continue working from Home ?

sometimes changes might upset the routine balance and become worse 

as you know Mr shaz and i are self employed and work and are together all the time , mr shaz would not be able to do things on his own 

[Shaz51]

Good afternoon @HenryX , @Sophie1 , @Mazarita , @bipolarbunny , @Former-Member , @Olga , @Meowmy , @frog , @Dimity , @Klutz , @greenpea , @Appleblossom , @SJT63 , @eth , @Former-Member 

Have 2 questions which Mr shaz is wondering too is 

1) does  different foods help you ? what does not help you ?

2) is with Emotions , showing emotions , delayed emotions or no emotions ?

I need a cup of virtual coffee now , anyone want one 

[Meowmy]

@Shaz51 hey darling, happy afternoon tea. I don't find good too much effect. Emotions are very hard to manage. It takes a lot of time and energy to regulate. Ongoing process.

[Shaz51]

yes same here with mr shaz 

sending you hugs my darling  @Meowmy 

[Olga]

@Saz51. Your question about emotions: i personally find that my medications make me somehow flat: no over excitement and joy, no sadness, no anger or even rage. I suppose this is what they are meant to do, right? That's why I hated them for a long time but now I am used to flat affect. I was so surprised that I cried for the first time in years about the treatment a little boy received from his father in the show "Bridgerton". Quite silly but I really couldn't stop and all came out. I am interested to hear what others say about emotions...