Destiny

[tyme]

Yes. Thinking back, things were incredibly precarious. Now, it appears you have more direction, goal and aim in life. This is so rewarding to see @Rockdog .

As for the school holidays, kids were back to school this week. The eldest was sick though, so she stayed at home 2 days. I was babysitting her on Tuesday night while her parents had to go out... I stayed with her to put her to sleep because she was unwell.

As soon as it was time for lights out, she vomited EVERYWHERE! I had to change all her sheets, doona, doona cover, her clothes and everything... I'm thinking "Ewwwww! This is why I didn't want to become a parent!" This is the sort of stuff you had over the parents!

Anyway, they are all back on track. Going to school , arguing, fighting, etc. Kids are kids. Gotta love em!

Life on my side is pretty good. Got over some heavy stressors over the past few weeks. It's onwards and upwards. 

[Rockdog]

Aww @tyme ,

it is so tough when they aren’t feeling well. They are so sweet though because the attitude stops and they are cuddly. Glad you got through it all, and you got through stressors. 

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

you are doing a great job as well. You have helped me so much and I really couldn’t do it without you. 

[tyme]

My lived experience of mental health has made me who I am @Rockdog .

Without the tremendous experiences I've been through, I would never be able to reach out to people in the way I do nowadays.

It's been such a journey for me. And I'm so glad to be able to share it with people such as yourself. Peer Work is so rewarding. 

You will find that the more you reach out, the more you get back in turn. This is certainly my experience anyway.

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme,

I am wondering whether I have improved because sometimes  it doesn’t feel like it. When I had her in my life I should have moved forward then.  Now with out her I am actually still pretty lost in all honesty. I will move forward but I have a big hole in my heart and I don’t even know if she would be aware. If I was to tell my story, in all honesty I still feel a bit like a fraud. 

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

So true . Without your experience, maybe you can’t connect with me. Maybe my experience can then help someone else. I do feel that we are all here to help each other to get through life. 

[tyme]

I never thought reaching out to people could be so helpful in my recovery. I sort of 'fell into' this peer work gig. It was never my intention. Then the opportunity came up. @Rockdog 

Totally not in my books, yet it has been incredibly rewarding. Far beyond my dreams. 

Well don't they say people change careers between 3-5 times in their lives?

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

yes they do say that, and without you who knows what happens with me. You are so important to me, and the only one else who believes in my dreams. I now feel that things can work out. Thank you for being there, because you have helped me see a future. I was lost but your support has helped me get back. Because I am anxious sometimes I can’t see it, that is why your reinforcement gets me through. I do hope that there are some feelings left on her side. 

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

i know I need to believe, but you still agree with me don’t you?

I am still pretty heartbroken. But I’m working on improving myself to get to where I need to be. I just miss her so much. 

[tyme]

Absolutely. You need to believe things will fall into place just as it is meant to be @Rockdog 

You spoke about the 'gut' feeling. I'm not sure if you've looked into it, but our 'gut' is our second 'brain'. There are clear links. I've just looked at some articles. Have a look for yourself 🙂

Please take care and look after yourself. I'm hopping off now, but will catch you on the Sunday Hangout.