Destiny

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme,

hearing from you always puts a smile on my face😊 Your support means so much to me. Sometimes it is hard to deal with the negative and it makes you start to doubt things. Sometimes I wondered why the feeling is so strong, even though there is adversity that others say let go. I think there is a reason I can’t and that means it is too powerful to let go or I would have. Of course there are still doubts though because like DBT counsellor said I can’t read minds. She was being smart and says ok read my mind. I went to try but obviously couldn’t. She was thinking of lunch. If I had said that I would have won. lol 

[tyme]

Lol @Rockdog 

Sure, no one can read minds. Sometimes, we can't even read our own minds! I know my mind has been a jumble of mush in the past lol.

That's not the point. What's intuition?

[Rockdog]

Yes @tyme,

that I what I think. I think we have intuition. I am the same with my thoughts. I don’t know what I am thinking. Like we have said it isn’t worth opening up to others about. I feel like sometimes I need to justify myself but I really don’t. I also feel like I  have taken a step back to go forwards, and it will be worth it in the long run. Maybe if I didn’t go through the pain of things ending I wouldn’t have grown through resilience. You don’t think my intuition was wrong? 

[tyme]

Are you able to assess your own intuition based on past experiences @Rockdog ?

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

how do you mean that? I think so 

[tyme]

Based on my previous experiences, at the moment, my intuition is pretty accurate. That 'gut' feeling gives me discernment. Whereas in the past, my intuition was out of whack because so many other things were happening for me @Rockdog . Hence, at that time, anxiety really affected my intuition.

Hope this makes it clearer

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme,

that does make sense but also makes me wonder because I was lost at the time and she was nice to me so I may have misread things. And at the end I was sure I had. But all the things I have mentioned happened and I I’m not making them up. But DBT lady said I was reading things in love mode. So I guess my answer is I’m not sure but hope I was right. 

[tyme]

You need to KNOW within you @Rockdog . It's not for us to know to anyone else. YOU need to know. Don't overthink or over complicate things. Turn the voices around you off. What is in your heart - only you know and you know you are right. Stick to that.

I believe in you.

[Rockdog]

Well @tyme ,

the thing is I really thought it was real but  when it ended I figured I read it wrong. Now I am a bit worried. In my heart I still believe it but maybe I am crazy. Maybe I wanted to believe what wasn’t really there. But i don’t believe she would have been like she was to me if it wasn’t real. I know it is how I feel that is important, but right now I am doubting a but and really do like your reinforcement. You are right, turn off the voices and let destiny do its thing. You know I met a lady for a drink last night. I left thinking that all I want is my special person. 🥲

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme ,

sorry if that didn’t make sense. The feeling is alive in my heart. If I break it down to that then we are good. It is the other noise I need to block out.